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Next time, when Bruce is speaking so stilted and strange in his armor, Clark will perhaps understand the twofold reason of the voice modulator. One, anonymity. Two, it takes the embarrassing edge off of gasping for breath after extreme exertion and just sounds spooky. Wheezing not very intimidating.
Anyway. This is not extreme exertion. Sorry, Clark.
Bruce moves a little beneath him, but it's nothing more than re-settling his weight. Flexing his shoulders. Grounding himself a little better, in the event he flips the other man. And illustrating how close he is, how trapped, and yet how still dangerous. If he pushes now, it won't be a matter of trusting Clark to move and prevent Bruce from hurting himself. It'll just be a fight.
"I know."
You'll have to trust me more than that.
Anyway. This is not extreme exertion. Sorry, Clark.
Bruce moves a little beneath him, but it's nothing more than re-settling his weight. Flexing his shoulders. Grounding himself a little better, in the event he flips the other man. And illustrating how close he is, how trapped, and yet how still dangerous. If he pushes now, it won't be a matter of trusting Clark to move and prevent Bruce from hurting himself. It'll just be a fight.
"I know."
You'll have to trust me more than that.
"Oh my god."
Just, in general.
Will diplomacy work? Can he talk Bruce into a collapse? Is he actually going to give up? Wait—
That prospect seems to enter his brain as sharp and sudden as an exclamation point. Sure, he imagined being overpowered, imagined losing, has in fact lost before, but that's different to making the concerted decision that you just can't do the thing you're trying to do. That he literally isn't strong enough. (A gasp of laughter, here.)
Which makes sense, obviously. Both of them are physically ridiculous, but Bruce has an edge, is used to his own limitations, is a gigantic person. He had said, you don't have to stop, but not that he won't need to.
Slowly, Bruce feels that pressure start to lessen, Clark careful not to take his foot off the gas too fast.
Just, in general.
Will diplomacy work? Can he talk Bruce into a collapse? Is he actually going to give up? Wait—
That prospect seems to enter his brain as sharp and sudden as an exclamation point. Sure, he imagined being overpowered, imagined losing, has in fact lost before, but that's different to making the concerted decision that you just can't do the thing you're trying to do. That he literally isn't strong enough. (A gasp of laughter, here.)
Which makes sense, obviously. Both of them are physically ridiculous, but Bruce has an edge, is used to his own limitations, is a gigantic person. He had said, you don't have to stop, but not that he won't need to.
Slowly, Bruce feels that pressure start to lessen, Clark careful not to take his foot off the gas too fast.
Oh my god, and Bruce smiles, unable to stop himself. It's a little bit edged, because that's just who he is, but mostly it's warm, and nearly a laugh. Clark is so fucking charming, he almost can't stand it. Somewhere occasionally infuriating. The Bat is dead, and Bruce had tried very hard not to let it filter into the more embarrassing dreams, and then he's just some dopey farmboy—
He lets Clark back off by degrees, breathes deep. When he's almost there, just on the cusp of being able to sit up, Bruce moves.
Push. Both hands, forcing Clark back, and he'll either right himself on his knees or topple. Should be knees, if he remembers anything at all from the painstaking lessons. Either way, Bruce gets hands on his shoulders, fisted into his shirt, hauling him practically onto his own lap. A funny not-pin, but somehow, it seems like Bruce still has leverage. He shifts one hand forward from shoulder to neck, against his pulse. Checking in. Awfully close.
"We're going to shut it down for now," is what he says, instead of doing something stupid. "And you'll need to wear a monitor for 24 hours." Don't worry, it's just a sticker. Bruce is good at this.
He lets Clark back off by degrees, breathes deep. When he's almost there, just on the cusp of being able to sit up, Bruce moves.
Push. Both hands, forcing Clark back, and he'll either right himself on his knees or topple. Should be knees, if he remembers anything at all from the painstaking lessons. Either way, Bruce gets hands on his shoulders, fisted into his shirt, hauling him practically onto his own lap. A funny not-pin, but somehow, it seems like Bruce still has leverage. He shifts one hand forward from shoulder to neck, against his pulse. Checking in. Awfully close.
"We're going to shut it down for now," is what he says, instead of doing something stupid. "And you'll need to wear a monitor for 24 hours." Don't worry, it's just a sticker. Bruce is good at this.
Clark has not exhausted himself to the point of being totally incapable of reacting, although the temptation to flop on the mat is extremely great. No, he gets his knees under him before he's hauled again in close, eyes flashing wide as his hand clasps down on Bruce's arm—
—which is at first a feather light touch until he remembers, and so goes ahead and digs fingers into bicep.
And then gusts out another disbelieving laugh as Bruce goes and checks his vitals. Honestly. There is sweat on Clark's forehead and his eyes are bright in a way that would ordinarily take a lot more physical exertion to encourage. He already feels like he's doing something stupid, and it is tempting to drag Bruce down with him. Further down.
No, alright. Let's not immediately fuck with the data. He loosens his grip on Bruce's arm too.
"You should too," he says. Don't explode on exit, Wayne.
Clark leans in to plant a kiss on Bruce's forehead, clumsily friendly, and moves to roll away.
—which is at first a feather light touch until he remembers, and so goes ahead and digs fingers into bicep.
And then gusts out another disbelieving laugh as Bruce goes and checks his vitals. Honestly. There is sweat on Clark's forehead and his eyes are bright in a way that would ordinarily take a lot more physical exertion to encourage. He already feels like he's doing something stupid, and it is tempting to drag Bruce down with him. Further down.
No, alright. Let's not immediately fuck with the data. He loosens his grip on Bruce's arm too.
"You should too," he says. Don't explode on exit, Wayne.
Clark leans in to plant a kiss on Bruce's forehead, clumsily friendly, and moves to roll away.
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"Alright." Mostly because it'll make Clark feel better, but also: yeah, well. Don't explode on exit, Wayne.
He watches Clark go, ready to reach out if he wobbles (enjoy the way it feels to stand up quickly when you're winded!), but otherwise, this experiment for today is wrapped. Boners probably a bad idea when they aren't sure if either of them will be able to recover just from breathing a little quickly after a playground tussle.
Decompression goes as good as it's gone; better, and Bruce only feels slightly lightheaded. The inside of his nose burns a little, like he's had a nosebleed, but no actual blood happens. He was right, the last time that he passed out— he's got it. They've got it. And all it needs is some fine-tuning, and then he's fairly certain his plan won't even require this kind of sealed chamber.
Which means he essentially ignores Clark for the next three days, absorbed in nerdery, consenting to bagels as long as he can eat them over his notebook. The bat signal goes up, and Bruce goes up too, but then sits back down at a ping from Vic. I've got it :)
"You taught him that." J'accuse.
He watches Clark go, ready to reach out if he wobbles (enjoy the way it feels to stand up quickly when you're winded!), but otherwise, this experiment for today is wrapped. Boners probably a bad idea when they aren't sure if either of them will be able to recover just from breathing a little quickly after a playground tussle.
Decompression goes as good as it's gone; better, and Bruce only feels slightly lightheaded. The inside of his nose burns a little, like he's had a nosebleed, but no actual blood happens. He was right, the last time that he passed out— he's got it. They've got it. And all it needs is some fine-tuning, and then he's fairly certain his plan won't even require this kind of sealed chamber.
Which means he essentially ignores Clark for the next three days, absorbed in nerdery, consenting to bagels as long as he can eat them over his notebook. The bat signal goes up, and Bruce goes up too, but then sits back down at a ping from Vic. I've got it :)
"You taught him that." J'accuse.
It's three days of something else, for Clark, whether it's overseeing the safe landing of a charter plane during an unexpected blizzard or buying a new cuttlefish bone for Woodstock or, you know, doing his dayjob. And he still finds time to visit the lakehouse, and chats to Alfred, and fails to chat to Bruce, and gets like only a little bit jealous about a science project even though it is for himself, just normal Superman things.
It's donuts, this time. They are round with holes in them, so it's of the same family. Clark is opening the box to obviously take one for himself as he glances, contextualise, and says, "What, giving you a night off? I definitely didn't."
He has tried. He is wearing, currently, some of the clothes he keeps stashed here, deciding to stick around rather than have only suited up just for donut delivery. Not that he is above that, or anything.
It's donuts, this time. They are round with holes in them, so it's of the same family. Clark is opening the box to obviously take one for himself as he glances, contextualise, and says, "What, giving you a night off? I definitely didn't."
He has tried. He is wearing, currently, some of the clothes he keeps stashed here, deciding to stick around rather than have only suited up just for donut delivery. Not that he is above that, or anything.
"The smiley face."
Vic doesn't sound like that. Bruce eyes him over the edge of one screen, though there's nothing bitey-bat-hostile about it, like he can get sometimes if he feels like he's being interfered with. Apparently, Victor Stone being a native Gothamite gives him a pass in a way that not even Superman gets. Bruce probably shouldn't even be going out anymore at all, but he still does; he's sure he'll die out there, unable to stop. But that's alright, and it's (hopefully) a fair bit away, still.
Tonight, he's got plenty to occupy himself with. Late night donuts, for one.
"So—"
A quiet breath, enigmatic pause in a way that is not actually enigmatic, and more telltale of Bruce being slightly nervous in a way he won't express.
"I'm making you a lamp."
Vic doesn't sound like that. Bruce eyes him over the edge of one screen, though there's nothing bitey-bat-hostile about it, like he can get sometimes if he feels like he's being interfered with. Apparently, Victor Stone being a native Gothamite gives him a pass in a way that not even Superman gets. Bruce probably shouldn't even be going out anymore at all, but he still does; he's sure he'll die out there, unable to stop. But that's alright, and it's (hopefully) a fair bit away, still.
Tonight, he's got plenty to occupy himself with. Late night donuts, for one.
"So—"
A quiet breath, enigmatic pause in a way that is not actually enigmatic, and more telltale of Bruce being slightly nervous in a way he won't express.
"I'm making you a lamp."
Clark steps nearer to set the box down in range for the sharing. He is holding his prize, chocolate and sprinkles, but he got two of everything. They'll taste fine, in a vegan kind of way. The box apparently withstood the flight pretty well.
And there'd been a smile about the smiley. Neither confirming nor denying.
"You're making me a lamp?"
The slightly nervous, he can sense, and he only spends half a second living in the reality that Bruce is helping him furnish his apartment with his bare hands before Clark says, "Wait, really?"
And there'd been a smile about the smiley. Neither confirming nor denying.
"You're making me a lamp?"
The slightly nervous, he can sense, and he only spends half a second living in the reality that Bruce is helping him furnish his apartment with his bare hands before Clark says, "Wait, really?"
Edited (whoops cmere face square) 2021-03-24 06:48 (UTC)
Vegan donuts in Jersey. What a world.
A look. Really. Bruce leans back and lets Clark see the schematic on screen— not exactly a Tiffany. Like a camping lantern, almost, but the dome shapes sketched out by digitally perfect curved lines suggest something more fiddly, almost like a tiny satellite. There's what's obviously the 'bulb', though the bit that does the work is poured out of pieces that more closely resemble solar panels. The base is a battery chamber, though it obviously isn't going to take double As.
"If you get sprinkles on my keyboard," sounds awfully parental. He only slips into it once in a blue moon, usually when he isn't paying attention to what he's saying.
More present: "A red sun lamp."
A look. Really. Bruce leans back and lets Clark see the schematic on screen— not exactly a Tiffany. Like a camping lantern, almost, but the dome shapes sketched out by digitally perfect curved lines suggest something more fiddly, almost like a tiny satellite. There's what's obviously the 'bulb', though the bit that does the work is poured out of pieces that more closely resemble solar panels. The base is a battery chamber, though it obviously isn't going to take double As.
"If you get sprinkles on my keyboard," sounds awfully parental. He only slips into it once in a blue moon, usually when he isn't paying attention to what he's saying.
More present: "A red sun lamp."
Edited (why am i thinking about connecticut) 2021-03-24 07:35 (UTC)
Clark pulls a chair over, and is careful with his donut, a hand hovered to catch any sprinkles when he takes a bite while also absorbing the information in front of him. There's a double-blink at the pronouncement of the device's name and function, but he doesn't look to Bruce first.
Instead, he reaches over and past Bruce to commandeer the mouse, and look for himself, clicking through components.
"I thought the closed environment was necessary," he says, not argumentative, just prompting, curious and focused. You leave someone alone with your group project for half a week—
Instead, he reaches over and past Bruce to commandeer the mouse, and look for himself, clicking through components.
"I thought the closed environment was necessary," he says, not argumentative, just prompting, curious and focused. You leave someone alone with your group project for half a week—
"Sort of." Shift to allow for another set of broad shoulders engaging with the mouse. (He should get an upright one, says Alfred.) "It'll help. It was necessary to collect the data I needed without any interference. But the end goal was always to find a way to those effects through other means."
Bruce indicates on a second screen, lines of data about the things they had been testing. Production, interaction, result, abatement.
"It won't really do anything, if you flipped it on in the middle of the street, or a ballroom. But in a bedroom with the curtains drawn, left on for a bit." He tips his head, hums something that conveys he thinks it should work off these specs, but of course, there will be tweaking involved. Bruce is a brilliant engineer, but he's self-taught. There will always be a degree of mad scientist about him.
"That chamber. I'll be dismantling it. I won't have somewhere you can be trapped like that. With this, it's got an escape hatch by virtue of being fragile. No reinforced doors or control panels. Calmly turn it off, or if something happens, it's easily breakable."
Bruce indicates on a second screen, lines of data about the things they had been testing. Production, interaction, result, abatement.
"It won't really do anything, if you flipped it on in the middle of the street, or a ballroom. But in a bedroom with the curtains drawn, left on for a bit." He tips his head, hums something that conveys he thinks it should work off these specs, but of course, there will be tweaking involved. Bruce is a brilliant engineer, but he's self-taught. There will always be a degree of mad scientist about him.
"That chamber. I'll be dismantling it. I won't have somewhere you can be trapped like that. With this, it's got an escape hatch by virtue of being fragile. No reinforced doors or control panels. Calmly turn it off, or if something happens, it's easily breakable."
Bruce's explanations marry with the information that Clark is reading, absorbed with supereyes and into superbrain. He arrives at that conclusion almost as Bruce says it, nodding along like he understands. He does.
Serious-reading-face softens, a breath of a laugh. Over the months of development, he's remembered what Bruce had said, about not needing to think about setting down a cup of coffee. He's reframed that goal into the idea of the sealed chamber, a place he could be, and train, and sure, reclaim that specific kind of intimacy with Bruce if they so chose.
He hadn't arrived at the conclusion that that place could be relatively anywhere.
Clark looks to him past his shoulder like he's about to say something clever or ask another question, but he says instead, "It's perfect." It's an idea still, sure, but a perfect one.
Serious-reading-face softens, a breath of a laugh. Over the months of development, he's remembered what Bruce had said, about not needing to think about setting down a cup of coffee. He's reframed that goal into the idea of the sealed chamber, a place he could be, and train, and sure, reclaim that specific kind of intimacy with Bruce if they so chose.
He hadn't arrived at the conclusion that that place could be relatively anywhere.
Clark looks to him past his shoulder like he's about to say something clever or ask another question, but he says instead, "It's perfect." It's an idea still, sure, but a perfect one.
They have been doing this too-intimate thing for a while, now, and still, Clark manages to find all these ways to catch him off-guard. It's perfect, he says, and it sounds so sincere. Bruce looks at him, and then looks back at the schematics. Yes, well. It's just a lamp. He ends up pulling the box of donuts over and peering within, selecting something with the least explosive topping.
"I'm sure there'll be a learning curve, even if it works right," he hedges. Pointlessly catastrophizing on a small scale. He haggles with himself, internally, and ends up adding: "I hope so. That it is."
Perfect.
Getting better at this optimistic thing, in stops and starts. He still feels it, but old habits die hard, and happiness is an ill-fitting suit, no matter that he bought it on purpose. What is this, chocolate with— "What flavor is pink supposed to be?"
"I'm sure there'll be a learning curve, even if it works right," he hedges. Pointlessly catastrophizing on a small scale. He haggles with himself, internally, and ends up adding: "I hope so. That it is."
Perfect.
Getting better at this optimistic thing, in stops and starts. He still feels it, but old habits die hard, and happiness is an ill-fitting suit, no matter that he bought it on purpose. What is this, chocolate with— "What flavor is pink supposed to be?"
Clark watches Bruce do the thing—the withdraw, the pessimism, and even, at this point, the self-correction. Unbothered by it all and warmed by the last. Plus, his donuts efforts will no longer be in vain.
"A berry," he answers, looking back at the schematics and listing back in his chair, loosely folding his arms over his T-shirt. He tends to wear big loose ones like he's still (was never) in college, so the casually impressive flexing has to hold up on its own. Plus, still finishing his donut. "There should be a plain one in there. I mean, a cinnamon one."
Which is plain, basically. And only one, so it's definitely for Bruce.
"How long until a prototype? I mean—" Quick amendment, minding manners. "Approximately, roughly. I know you've been working a lot already on this."
"A berry," he answers, looking back at the schematics and listing back in his chair, loosely folding his arms over his T-shirt. He tends to wear big loose ones like he's still (was never) in college, so the casually impressive flexing has to hold up on its own. Plus, still finishing his donut. "There should be a plain one in there. I mean, a cinnamon one."
Which is plain, basically. And only one, so it's definitely for Bruce.
"How long until a prototype? I mean—" Quick amendment, minding manners. "Approximately, roughly. I know you've been working a lot already on this."
Cinnamon is appreciated, but he has already accidentally gouged (a) berry flavored non-dairy glaze with the side of his thumb, so a little under half of the chocolate-with-pink donut is broken off, and shoved in one motion into his mouth.
Om.
Bruce sits back to manage that, hand hovering near his face to obscure the lack of grace in having done so. A brilliant deviation from eating leftover pizza all the times Barry has continued to poke his head in, all sharp-sweet and nothing with sauce, but he's immediately sick of the sugar. It's fine. Not that disgusting, for being vegan. Chews thoroughly, definitely not just buying himself some time to perversely revel in the awareness that Clark is bordering on impatient for this thing he's making.
They've been very well-behaved so far. Mostly. He isn't sure if he's glad they never properly fooled around in the chamber, but he is sure they're going to end up strung-out in a very particular by the time the lamp works.
"Shouldn't take as long as the first part. I'll have a better estimate after I knock the first model together."
Om.
Bruce sits back to manage that, hand hovering near his face to obscure the lack of grace in having done so. A brilliant deviation from eating leftover pizza all the times Barry has continued to poke his head in, all sharp-sweet and nothing with sauce, but he's immediately sick of the sugar. It's fine. Not that disgusting, for being vegan. Chews thoroughly, definitely not just buying himself some time to perversely revel in the awareness that Clark is bordering on impatient for this thing he's making.
They've been very well-behaved so far. Mostly. He isn't sure if he's glad they never properly fooled around in the chamber, but he is sure they're going to end up strung-out in a very particular by the time the lamp works.
"Shouldn't take as long as the first part. I'll have a better estimate after I knock the first model together."
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It is expected and anticipated that Bruce will have more than one donut, if not all tonight. Clark just doesn't mind helping himself first to his food gifts, the last of his donut disappearing behind his fangs, followed by the sprinkles that had fallen into his hand, shotgunned like pills.
'Uh huh' says a nod as he finishes his bite, listening, and swallowing before speaking, "Can I help?"
His tone makes it a real question as opposed to seeking permission to hang out or something: can he help, or is it too fiddly and he'd just be breathing down Bruce's neck.
'Uh huh' says a nod as he finishes his bite, listening, and swallowing before speaking, "Can I help?"
His tone makes it a real question as opposed to seeking permission to hang out or something: can he help, or is it too fiddly and he'd just be breathing down Bruce's neck.
Once in a while, it strikes him at random; how attractive Clark is, how easily he could (can, does sometimes) become distracted to the point of blocking out everything else. What might that look like, reaching over and yanking him closer via rolling desk chair, kissing him, grappling to the floor.
Fingerdrum on desk surface. Anyway, science.
"Maybe."
Well.
"There's no drawback to you learning about it. I've never built anything exactly like this before, so I don't know it'll go. Boring, probably, but if you want to hold a screwdriver for a few afternoons I won't kick you out preemptively."
Fingerdrum on desk surface. Anyway, science.
"Maybe."
Well.
"There's no drawback to you learning about it. I've never built anything exactly like this before, so I don't know it'll go. Boring, probably, but if you want to hold a screwdriver for a few afternoons I won't kick you out preemptively."
'Boring', he says, and Clark's smile skews crooked. There'd been a glance at fingerdrum, which might as well have been an airhorn of a signal, signifying something. "I can do that," he says, easy warmth. For the concession, maybe, but also the thing itself, contributing in some small way to something complex, interesting, and for him. There is a lot that Bruce does along those lines. Has before.
Clark has donuts, so. One of them he is about to steal, reaching for the box when he pauses, hand hovered in place, that transformation in expression and demeanor like a dog hearing something beyond the capabilities of human hearing.
Duty calls.
The wind in the room displaces anything paper-light, although it's not quite the violent storm of kinetic movement when Barry does this. Still, Clark was here and now he's not, chair rotating silently in place, and hardly ten seconds later, a sonic boom will mark his exit from the area properly, somewhere in the sky.
And despite that rudeness and urgency, Bruce is pretty sure there is still the lingering ghost of a touch having subtly rearranged his hair more definitively than just the wind of take off.
Clark has donuts, so. One of them he is about to steal, reaching for the box when he pauses, hand hovered in place, that transformation in expression and demeanor like a dog hearing something beyond the capabilities of human hearing.
Duty calls.
The wind in the room displaces anything paper-light, although it's not quite the violent storm of kinetic movement when Barry does this. Still, Clark was here and now he's not, chair rotating silently in place, and hardly ten seconds later, a sonic boom will mark his exit from the area properly, somewhere in the sky.
And despite that rudeness and urgency, Bruce is pretty sure there is still the lingering ghost of a touch having subtly rearranged his hair more definitively than just the wind of take off.
The steady metronome of Bruce Wayne's heartbeat is the kind to set clocks by. Even, measured, solid. When it speeds up to send blood pumping quicker through his body, it does so with the grace of a luxury car changing gears; when it slows at rest, or slows even further during sleep, it shifts down and down but keeps that constant, perfectly measured beat.
Panic is unthinkable. He has looked down horror beyond imagination and found himself capable of severing the emotional from the physical time and time again. Even if his mind is scrambled, his heart will remain as it should. Thunk, thunk. A horse galloping in slow-motion.
Until it isn't. A grey dawn, sun barely making a dent in low cloud cover. Bruce only got to bed an hour or so ago - an early evening, but worth it, both to rest after a long stretch of painstaking tinkering, and to indulge in lying curled together with Clark's warmly radiating body. The Kryptonian is too heavy and too hot and Bruce likes all of it, likes being caged in so securely, and having every ache and shiver chased away.
He feels like he's sprinting. He feels like he's suffocating. A wild and out of control tailspin bursting into life from nowhere. Still asleep, he struggles to draw in a deep breath.
Panic is unthinkable. He has looked down horror beyond imagination and found himself capable of severing the emotional from the physical time and time again. Even if his mind is scrambled, his heart will remain as it should. Thunk, thunk. A horse galloping in slow-motion.
Until it isn't. A grey dawn, sun barely making a dent in low cloud cover. Bruce only got to bed an hour or so ago - an early evening, but worth it, both to rest after a long stretch of painstaking tinkering, and to indulge in lying curled together with Clark's warmly radiating body. The Kryptonian is too heavy and too hot and Bruce likes all of it, likes being caged in so securely, and having every ache and shiver chased away.
He feels like he's sprinting. He feels like he's suffocating. A wild and out of control tailspin bursting into life from nowhere. Still asleep, he struggles to draw in a deep breath.
Clark is hardly sleeping. 'Meditating' is probably a good enough kind of description of this state of half-asleep, aware of almost everything save for time, which slips by like sand in glass. Bruce is a very meditative person to sleep by, to rest by, with his constant heart beat, and his stillness. Clark sinks in and out of consciousness, like floating on water.
So when irregular breathing and a pounding heart start up, Clark lifts his head, looks down at Bruce in their comfortable tangle, quizzical concern at first. He has an arm pinned ("pinned") beneath Bruce's head and he keeps that still while his other hovers over the other man's chest.
Still asleep. Dreaming.
Going gently, then, his hand comes up to card through grey-streaked dark hair, Clark lowering his head to nose at Bruce's hairline. "Bruce," he says, all quiet baritone. Quiet, but he can do a thing with his voice that makes him hard to ignore. A subtle rattle at the glass panes of consciousness. "You're having a nightmare." Another gentle sweeping of his hand through his hair. "Wake up."
So when irregular breathing and a pounding heart start up, Clark lifts his head, looks down at Bruce in their comfortable tangle, quizzical concern at first. He has an arm pinned ("pinned") beneath Bruce's head and he keeps that still while his other hovers over the other man's chest.
Still asleep. Dreaming.
Going gently, then, his hand comes up to card through grey-streaked dark hair, Clark lowering his head to nose at Bruce's hairline. "Bruce," he says, all quiet baritone. Quiet, but he can do a thing with his voice that makes him hard to ignore. A subtle rattle at the glass panes of consciousness. "You're having a nightmare." Another gentle sweeping of his hand through his hair. "Wake up."
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Seconds pass in the real world, and the brain records long minutes, hours, of surreal dreamscapes and turbulent nightmares, experienced in that other, unconscious realm. Bruce's heart cranks up in sheer terror, Clark whispers, and in the dark, those seconds—
A lifetime.
He's awake in an instant, wild, panicked, blind to company in bed with him. He only knows that he's desperate to get away from that and there's something restricting him, and he lashes out in a shove that's more of a hit. Even out of control and in a poor position, Bruce is dangerous - would be, to anyone else - and it'll be a near thing to not practically explode all the bones in his hand if Clark doesn't move.
Sat up on the edge of the bed, Bruce struggles to get in a full breath, tight and forceful through a clenched jaw. Already automatically trying to regulate himself and reign in the gallop of his pulse, reel in the dizzy panic racing in his head. It's like choking himself, though eerily silent.
He begins to adjust, and realizes—
Clark.
Furious with himself, Bruce pushes to his feet and puts distance between himself and the bed, staring unfocused out at the lake, an inch from the glass.
A lifetime.
He's awake in an instant, wild, panicked, blind to company in bed with him. He only knows that he's desperate to get away from that and there's something restricting him, and he lashes out in a shove that's more of a hit. Even out of control and in a poor position, Bruce is dangerous - would be, to anyone else - and it'll be a near thing to not practically explode all the bones in his hand if Clark doesn't move.
Sat up on the edge of the bed, Bruce struggles to get in a full breath, tight and forceful through a clenched jaw. Already automatically trying to regulate himself and reign in the gallop of his pulse, reel in the dizzy panic racing in his head. It's like choking himself, though eerily silent.
He begins to adjust, and realizes—
Clark.
Furious with himself, Bruce pushes to his feet and puts distance between himself and the bed, staring unfocused out at the lake, an inch from the glass.
Clark stays tender with his touches even as that sense of panic seems to rise. It'll be okay in a second, all Bruce has to do is open his eyes, except eyes open suddenly and—movement, fast and violent, catching Clark off guard enough that he can't even let go of Bruce in time to curb reaction.
He jerks his head back, twists aside, faster than a normal person, slower than his usual. He feels the heel of Bruce's hand scrape by his jaw even if the worst of it is channeled into the pillow. His own heart skips a beat about how that could have gone, and then Bruce is over there, Clarks hands following after him a moment too late, up on his knees by the time Bruce is at the window.
"Bruce?" he says. Normal voice, fraught with concern. Behind him, Bruce can hear the pillowy sounds of Clark navigating himself off expensive mattress, in his direction.
He jerks his head back, twists aside, faster than a normal person, slower than his usual. He feels the heel of Bruce's hand scrape by his jaw even if the worst of it is channeled into the pillow. His own heart skips a beat about how that could have gone, and then Bruce is over there, Clarks hands following after him a moment too late, up on his knees by the time Bruce is at the window.
"Bruce?" he says. Normal voice, fraught with concern. Behind him, Bruce can hear the pillowy sounds of Clark navigating himself off expensive mattress, in his direction.
It takes him a moment. Shame is obvious in the set of his shoulders. If it wouldn't be beyond the pale of dramatic he'd leave, somehow, but even caught in panic's grasp he knows that would be both useless, and compounding embarrassment. So he forces himself to stand there and breathe. Had he been alone, he'd have managed to submerge his response under ice, but it's like stumbling on a step he didn't see. Disoriented.
Only once his pulse is back to something halfway normal does he notice his hand. Bruce very nearly flinches, looking down at it, twisting his wrist in the near-dark to look at. Pain shooting up from his pinkie finger. Well done, Wayne.
Something sick twists in him. "I'm sorry," he rasps, grave.
Only once his pulse is back to something halfway normal does he notice his hand. Bruce very nearly flinches, looking down at it, twisting his wrist in the near-dark to look at. Pain shooting up from his pinkie finger. Well done, Wayne.
Something sick twists in him. "I'm sorry," he rasps, grave.
Clark stays seated, at first, on the edge of the bed as Bruce takes his time, breathes. No doubt his presence is a form of pressure, invisible and weighty, but he does what he can to give Bruce a moment to calibrate, because the alternative is leaving, and he's not about to do that. Then there's that nearly twitch, the glance down, and Clark tracks that, eyes unfocusing and refocusing so that the the world shimmers into ghost-forms. His heart sinks.
"No," he says, at that apology. The urge to scramble over it with his own guilt is there, ready, but he instead brings his hands up, gently blows into his cupped palms, a wisp of icy air fluttering past his fingers, frost patterning delicately over super-cooled skin.
Standing, nearing. "My hand is cold," is a warning, as is, "Let me look," while reaching over to go and take Bruce's injured hand.
"No," he says, at that apology. The urge to scramble over it with his own guilt is there, ready, but he instead brings his hands up, gently blows into his cupped palms, a wisp of icy air fluttering past his fingers, frost patterning delicately over super-cooled skin.
Standing, nearing. "My hand is cold," is a warning, as is, "Let me look," while reaching over to go and take Bruce's injured hand.
His self-worth is hurt more than his hand, which will do alright in a few weeks if he keeps an eye on it; Bruce allows Clark to take it, careful, as if he might somehow do further damage on his own, despite the fact that the other man is literally invulnerable.
"I shouldn't even have the instinct." Quiet, but final. He understands Clark won't want to hear an apology - Bruce wouldn't either, maybe, if they were reversed - but it doesn't matter that he didn't actually hurt Clark. He shares nights with Lois sometimes, for fuck's sake. What does this look like, in bed with somebody else? He feels sick over it. Getting too comfortable with all of this, forgetting who and what he is. Idiot.
Trying to shake it off, but there's some deep icy chain connecting him to that unconscious feeling of horror.
"One hasn't gotten me like that in a long time."
Bruce thought they would get better, once he brought them together. But they've only grown worse.
"I shouldn't even have the instinct." Quiet, but final. He understands Clark won't want to hear an apology - Bruce wouldn't either, maybe, if they were reversed - but it doesn't matter that he didn't actually hurt Clark. He shares nights with Lois sometimes, for fuck's sake. What does this look like, in bed with somebody else? He feels sick over it. Getting too comfortable with all of this, forgetting who and what he is. Idiot.
Trying to shake it off, but there's some deep icy chain connecting him to that unconscious feeling of horror.
"One hasn't gotten me like that in a long time."
Bruce thought they would get better, once he brought them together. But they've only grown worse.
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