You brought me back is factual, and can be split into pieces; it's possible he wouldn't have been able to do it without Barry and Vic, it's more than possible that killing Bruce there on the lawn in front of the monument would have been completely justified. And there is where I wanna be could be true but-- but it shouldn't be and Clark has Lois, he'll--

Don't send me away is what gets him. His breath catches, he looks at Clark like something sharp has slipped in between his ribs and speared something vital.

His heartbeat is still wild, staring frozen at Clark captured in something like panic, but he doesn't pull away. Doesn't even flinch at the way his chair is batted to the side like an empty tin can - either he trusts Clark so implicitly that it doesn't occur to him to be nervous, or he's accepted whatever harm might come to him. (Probably both.)

"I don't know how to do this," is what he says eventually, strained.