Bruce stands up and takes a step towards him, looking the way he does, which is enough for Clark to remember his own cock still pressed against denim, so that's
probably fine
and he sinks back against the chair when pushed. The relief that comes with contact reinitiated—well, what did he expect? That he'd say something that would cause Bruce to reject him, after all this? Well, maybe. A lifetime of not saying anything for exactly that reasons is a hard habit to shake. Sometimes, these moments with Bruce are like taking a step in the dark. He's getting used to always landing well.
So Bruce does touch him and Clark tilts his face up, paying some attention to the way his hair is being gripped so he can bend his neck back with it.
This is crazy. They should not touch again, speak only politely in between intel meetings, if absolutely necessary. Clark should turn Bruce's absurd affections away. Who buys a fucking bank? Who looks into buying an entire newspaper just so it doesn't get screwed by the digital age? (Or snapped up by LexCorp's board. Fuck that.)
As if Bruce could ever reject him.
He crowds in close, gets a knee on one side of Clark's, presses his weight in over his lap. It's an expensive chair, and it doesn't creak just yet. God, he just wants to pull his hair until it frays, get Clark flushed and nearly crimson-eyed with shaking hands. He wants to bite the side of his jaw until his teeth crack.
Comfortable, is how Clark would describe the weight of Bruce settling over him. As are the fingers in his hair, the gravity of Bruce's attention. He is caught a little wide eyed in all these things, hands retracting where they'd rested on his thighs. Hips shifting against the chair and Bruce both, just a fraction.
Comfortable is nowhere to go, and comfortable is the practically limitless depths of Bruce's—desire seems like a small word. Love strains at its definitions too.
If the question hedges on slightly too Socratic for him—a querying twinge of his eyebrows, what is he gonna do about it—it's really his own heartbeat that spurs him on. His hands when he slides them up under Bruce's open shirt are achingly warm, and when he grips the edges of his collar and pulls him down unstoppably into a kiss, so is that.
Bruce might be interested in reading journalist Clark Kent's take on philosophies. How Socratic is What are you going to do about it? How about Do you bleed? What is Bruce Wayne trying to draw out, with the kinds of questions he asks this man in particular? A little hypocritical, don't you think?
(Once, a few years ago, a journalist asked him if he ever thought he'd do anything with the law degree he earned. Not really, he'd said, and downed another drink. I don't remember much of it.)
He goes to that kiss, because he has no choice in the matter. He presses one hand against the side of Clark's throat, fingers digging in at his pulse point, thumb at his jaw. It makes his hand ache. He can't hear the other man's heartbeat, but he can feel it, and maybe if he had the power he'd reach into his chest and feel his whole heart. He's not sure how to make something as intense as they want it (need it) without it being violent but this is somewhere to start, honesty spilled out between them like blood.
I want you to fuck me
is not something he'll say out loud. Yet. He wants Clark to push him again, he wants, he wants. A thousand things. The way he kisses him is too warm in turn in response to that warmth. He's not like this. He doesn't do this, he doesn't let people read things in him, he doesn't permit himself to let emotion speak through sex. He doesn't, he doesn't, he is.
The kiss is ungentle. They do plenty of gentle kissing, and this has the heat that they'd shared moments before breaking to talk about it. Clark kisses him like they've gone for much longer without, the harsh scrape of teeth, the dull and damp pressure of need. There is a dull sting by the time they break—on Bruce's side, of course, just the slightest hint of blood.
Clark's hand had landed high on Bruce's leg, the dig of his thumb likely to leave a bruise. He's still thinking it over, what will he do about it, what is he going to, and then it makes an easy flip into what does he want. They both know: something that is too much, and not enough. He swallows just to feel that hold on his neck, blue eyes dark in the dim light, colour sapped from the room—
—a room that is thrown into a blur, for a moment, at least for Bruce. The weight of Clark suddenly lifted beneath him, floor vanishing beneath the foot still balanced against it, a momentary sense of zero gravity, and then he finds his back is pressed to the bed. The only real sense of momentum and inertia being pillowy spring-back of the bed beneath him.
And Clark on him, watching him, knowing too much, hands on his shoulders.
Inside of his mouth cut on his teeth. Bruises on his skin. Breath nearly knocked out of him, the shift so quick - just about fast enough to disorient him, only clawing to awareness because he is who he is. Beneath Clark, arms beside his head, staring up at him. He rolls his shoulders just to feel the way the other man doesn't budge; someone human would at least flex from it, even if they were putting their full weight onto the hold. He knows Clark isn't even trying.
He's never thought before, specifically, I want to be held down. This isn't that. This is just how to get the other thing, that there isn't a name for, caught in the back of his throat. That's been there for two fucking years.
Bruce gets a knee at the side of Clark's keep, pressed up, grinding against him, the rough feeling of denim against his slacks hardly noticeable for what it is - too focused on Clark himself, every point of contact. He gets a hand between them and scraps down his chest, undoing the closure of the other man's jeans, tugging down for as much as the pin is giving him room for. Not much. Shocked at himself, how hard he is, and he'd be embarrassed about it if there was anything left to be embarrassed about, between them.
Looks at him the whole time. Like he might say something.
Clark's eyes hood a little, staying perfectly and borderline unnaturally still as Bruce's palms slide down his chest, and tug at his jeans. He breathes out, lifting his hips to allow it, doing little more than relishing the feeling of Bruce's hands working the denim down past his hips, the cooler air against his cock once its freed.
Clark smooths his hands around from shoulders to Bruce's throat, thumb stroking along the line from collar to beneath his chin, a hold that keeps him still so Clark can bend down to kiss him again.
It's different, not pretending. There have been casual hook ups in the past he has spooked from just the little things—forgetting to roll when pushed, or failing to react when someone is rough.
Some of the kinks (as it were) worked out for the first time with Lois. Not all of 'em.
He slides a hand between them as well, fingers smoothing down Bruce's abdomen, fingers dipping inside his pants. There is the sound of seams in stress and a tear of fabric, waistband immediately looser than before as knuckles push past. "Sorry," doesn't sound sorry when it's breathed like that against your neck.
"Mmhm." Sure you are. He wonders how often Clark has wanted to tear clothes off someone. If it's frustrating to not be able to hurry anything along for fear of shredding garments beyond repair with barely any effort. Bruce pushes up into the hand at his throat, forcing Clark to press down against his windpipe or pull his hand back. He drags in a breath, so that he can feel it, the ragged effort it takes, the way his pulse hammers faster.
One hand goes around Clark's wrist, at his own throat, and he lets the other move more idly - ignoring his own torn trousers to touch Clark, rub at his stiff cock and slide his fingers around it. A slow contrast to the unhinged stops and starts of the rest of their contact. The sexuality of it, at least this part, seems secondary to whatever else they're doing to each other.
Not that he doesn't want to get off. He's predictable like that.
A self-satisfied sigh, an arch to his back, but attention still paid to the ring of pressure he has placed tight against Bruce's throat. Clark lifts his head, that slight slack to his mouth a contrast to bright eyes, sharp, focused. The hand that had fumbled into Bruce's pants braces on the bed instead, for the moment.
The next adjustment his subtle, but has him further Bruce by just a fraction, hips pushing forward and into the hand stroking him.
Watching him carefully—the room not so dark that Bruce can't find that small blot of darker pigmentation in blue eyes, that comical gesture to defect—Clark settles his palm a little more firmly in place. A flick of a glance, maybe checking the anatomy beneath the layers, before his fingers squeeze.
Just a little. Just enough, for the next thump of heartbeat, rushing blood through major arteries, is felt deeper.
Bruce locks eyes with him as he pulls in a breath, finding it - of course - difficult. It's not like a boa constrictor; there's no give at all, Clark is the most uncompromising being in existence. There's no guesswork. He can't find a way out of this. The only variable is Clark, and when, or if, he will choose to move his hand. What does it feel like? The rough constructs of cartilage around all the soft structures that keep him alive, all as easy to pass through as water. His heart pounds, but it isn't from fear.
His hand grips so hard at Clark's wrist but it's just holding him, not pushing him forward, not trying to pull him away. Slowly, because of course he's the sort of lunatic who can hold his breath for long minutes and ignore the potential pain of bruising on his larynx, Bruce's awareness narrows to Clark's face, and the sound of his pulse hammering in his ears, everything going pinpointed. His other hand has lost its focus and is just clutching at Clark's hip with that same aimless viciousness, holding without intent to push him one way or the other.
This feels as new as the first time he'd taken to the sky, when he wasn't immediately certain if that feeling was fear or thrill. Clark's eyes are big in his head but likewise focused, watching as Bruce calibrates, locks that hand around his wrist, finds a sort of equilibrium that feels core to how he functions.
Clark holds him there for as long as he thinks is worth the risk. His other hand glides again down the centre of Bruce's chest, resting his palm against his erection, both coaxing arousal and relieving it with that warm friction.
Slowly, the iron collar of grip at Bruce's neck lessens, slips into something tender. As soon as he breathes easy, Clark wants that too, kissing him warm and messy and full of desire.
Air fills his lungs again, and the sudden contrast is dizzying— the concept of erotic asphyxiation is not an unknown one, to him, and maybe he's been in the shallow end of the pool before, but nothing like this. Nothing like how much it was, or how sensation seems to slam back into him now, everything his brain had quit paying attention to in favor of keeping him alive flooding over him.
Between that and Clark's hand on his cock he's stupid for a moment, dazed, melted uselessness between him with a look in his eyes that betrays having briefly been in some other dimension.
"Fuck," he grates, into that kiss. Brain clicking back online, hands in Clark's hair again. Gives as good as he's given, and that's another dizzying contrast, like shoving his head into hot water after cold. (What the hell is Alfred going to think, if he glimpses bruises from hands around his throat. Maybe he'll just hide for a week.) Still with edges of twilight clinging to him, Bruce removes a hand and stretches it towards the bedside stand, though he can't quite reach it while pinned. An ocean of a bed, for someone his height, and company. So he says, "Grab that," in a voice that doesn't sound used to a lack of compliance, despite all of this. Because the way he pushes up, grinding hard against hard, is all tangled in shredded fabric and the cold metal closure of a denim zip, and there's lube in the drawer.
(Along with some prescription bottles and other assorted sins, but he's been training himself out of the impulse to hide that sort of shit in a lead box. Clark knows. It's a whatever.)
That heartbeat of moment between Bruce pliant and dazed beneath him, and then grabbing hands in his hair and biting kiss back, is the kind of memory Clark will earmark for later reference. It feels good, and rare, and he can feel privately pleased with himself, privately smug about it, on his own time.
A later time. Because right now he feels like he's been horny for approximately eighty years and it's a problem.
He turns his head at Bruce's direction, catches his own breath, and moves off of the other man to flop diagonal across the mattress to reach for the stand. It is a possibly necessary moment of pause, not just to slow down a second, but also for Clark to kick his own jeans and underwear off without tearing anything further.
There's the telltale skitter and rustle of the drawer being opened, lube taken out, and then the mattress creaks as Clark closes back in. "I wanna fuck you," he says, mouth grazing against Bruce's shoulder. Low, husky, even if it's not his throat that's been constricted with any consequence lately. "Is that what you want?"
In part, part of the mood, but also, a real question.
It's such a normal moment. Clark wiggling over to snag supplies and get his jeans off. For a second they are anyone, and this isn't strange unmapped territory, no one was being nearly choked out a second ago. They're just two men fumbling through the beginnings of a relationship.
Struck by it, he smiles while Clark's distracted. (Or is he. Superspeed, superbrain, does he see; Bruce can't know.) With quick grace befitting of a ninja he slips out of the remains of his clothes, comfortable nude despite the vast coverage of scars, and when Clark comes back to mouth at his shoulder, Bruce is halfway up on his side, body inclined towards his, welcoming, hands gliding, as hungry and demanding as they are warm.
"Yes." Like a lance to his gut. Something hotter than he has words for. Like heat vision. Hah. "That's what I want."
Low and earnest. He doesn't shake when he says it. Somehow. Bruce presses a kiss to his mouth.
Clark's eyes half-closed, and he is kissed, a curl of pleasure embering low in his gut. He sinks into the welcome of Bruce's reaching hands, hitching leg against leg, hand on his hip.
He shakes his head, but finds his voice. "No," quietly spoken between them. "Had to be careful."
More careful. Extra careful. In the few moments he's been taken to bed by another man, the prospect always seemed stressful in a way it doesn't now. The potential for harm, yes, and the potential for somehow being found out, an ever present spectre of possibility. Since then, he's had some time to figure himself out, both in those moments stepping off the ruins of a Kryptonian spacecraft and learning to fly, and in the past minute of holding Bruce's throat so gently, like a butterfly in cupped hands.
"Mm." Sounds a bit like Well. Like whatever Bruce is going to follow that up with will be somewhat dismissive; but there's that undertone already, the pointed and seductive one, that invites things like an unmoving hand on his throat. "Careful enough."
He imagines that the difference between being extra careful with someone else and less careful than that with Bruce is only a small degree. But he also imagines Clark has never got to change that dial at all.
The kiss ends with Bruce's teeth on his lower lip. He wishes Clark could... Well, again. It's not even about wanting to get off on pain, which he doesn't, strictly speaking. As dissected in stops and starts, it's that he gets off on Clark. But he wants him to feel out of control in a way that doesn't result in someone dead or leveled buildings. Pipe dreams. (Nightmares.)
"Do you want to use anything else?" he rakes his nails down Clark's chest, settles a hand at the base of his cock, not quite touching him close enough. It's not actually an insensitive joke about alien STIs. It's an insensitive joke about Bruce's own status as somewhat prolific, he won't be offended if Clark would rather err on the side of condoms. Even though they've already been drowning in each other's kisses while he's been bleeding from the mouth. And he's clean anyway. But, you know. Courtesy.
Even when teeth set against seemingly soft flesh, or when nails dimple impervious flesh, and neither of these things are painful and so their effects are thereby—muffled, they are still felt, in their own way. And it's like every little thing Bruce does, down to the hand settled warm near his cock or the timbre of Bruce's voice in supersensitive ears sparks Clark's interest.
There's probably some expert out there that could tell him why he desires so much for this man in particular to touch him a whole lot, but—
He's busy. And he kisses him, murmurs a negatory sound and an, "I'm good," while he's there. The mattress dips and sighs beneath the shift of weight as Clark moves to crowd over Bruce again, lifting himself up a little. The articulately combed waves of his hair have been thoroughly disrupted over the course of the last several minutes. In spite of certain fan blog essays on the subject that Clark definitely hasn't read on slow news days, it doesn't take a lot.
In one way or another, Bruce has desperately, ravenously desired him since the moment he became aware of him. That night (that night), its direction was skewed, but only that. No interruption. It is still desperate, and ravenous, and all of his objections along the way about it being a bad idea and Clark having Lois to prioritize have been objections towards himself. Because he can't say no. He has clawed at him in every way, to hurt him, to keep him (I'm a friend of your son's), against his tombstone, against him now.
They should not, under any circumstances, consult an expert.
"Is that where you want me?" Bruce sits up enough so that he's crowding Clark from below, held there by just his abdominal muscles, speaking close and low. "Unable to look away from you? So you can watch my face? Or do you want to hold me down with your hand at the back of my neck?"
When he grabs Clark's jaw, it's with the kind of force that would hurt a human. As if he could hold him there, force him to maintain eye contact, bruise the tendons under his chin.
Clark does maintain eye contact, all the while that specific and perfect stillness sets through his muscles. Never as tense as a human being would have to be. Still, this close, Bruce can feel the tic and tug of muscle and tendon, and see the micro-shifts of pupil, eye colour dispersion. He might sense the fist Clark makes in the sheets next to him, the held breath.
Off-kilter until he isn't. Unmoving until he has a hand around Bruce's arm, but it's not firm, just yet. It's a gentle splay of fingers across the back of his wrist, thumb press light where his pulse might be, like they're sharing a romantic moment watching the sunset, and he's about to say something less direct than—
"On your back," he says, with a new rough edge in his voice, like maybe his mouth went dry at some point there.
And he moves Bruce's hand away from his jaw, and he pushes it right back so that that arm is pinned on the mattress beside his head, that the rest of him has to follow. Bruce can tell there is no real weight on his arm, holding it down, even as Clark pushes over him. "I wanna see that look on your face again. Like you don't know where you are, what you're doing."
He slips a thigh between Bruce's, nudging one aside.
He's wondered before. If Clark ever sounded so intentionally furious, before the night he showed up to tell Bruce he was dead.
What other voices are just mine?
There's no weight on his arm, but to move it, he'd have to rip it off. Like a fox gnawing off a limb to escape a trap. He lets his legs move - like he has a real choice - and hitches one knee up, calf curling around the back of Clark's thigh, coaxing, daring. His unpinned hand moves to snag the lube, clicking the top open, getting some on his fingers. He is still sat up an inch over the mattress, forcing Clark to force him.
"As if there is anything," his voice is a deep hiss, rasping like cold water over gravel, "Anything at all, that could be mistaken for you."
He'll know because it's Clark. The only inescapable thing. He grabs the other man's hand, covering it with that slipper substance. (High quality shit. Neato.) He is not suicidal enough to just slick his cock for him, he wants it rough, not requiring a visit to the emergency room. Though the thought of it, so on the edge, is its own kind of tempting. Instead there's that, a pointed instruction as biting as Tell me. Don't you know what you're supposed to be doing with that, Kansas?
Clark's expression twitches when he feels Bruce's hand grasp his and transfer a coating of lube. Sir. But its that pushback that compels him to squeeze his hand around Bruce's wrist, to reward the things he says with a kiss that does force him flat against the bed—stay down—and lower his hand to tuck it up between the other man's legs.
Gentle, here, this part necessitates that, just as the rest of what they are doing requires the occasional exchange of information. What are you doing, where do you wanna be, what do you want.
"Touch me," he says. It's meant to be an order. It comes out more like a wish.
But he's not slowing for anything. Warm fingers and cool slipperiness stroking sensitive skin, finding that give, pushing inside just shallowly at first.
Oof. Being flattened like that makes his cock twitch; he wonders if Clark can feel it. Brushing together barely-there, Bruce isn't sure he has the sensitivity to feel things that move so little when they aren't touching fully. He hums into that kiss, the sound of it cut short when Clark pulls back to not-order him.
"Clark," is an exhale, as warm as he'd been harsh, a moment ago. He flexes his captured wrist, as delicate as moth wings beneath his alien grip. Of course I will. His touch shifts up at first, over his chest, through so-human hair and tracing unreal contours, to drag his fingertips over the circle of one nipple, featherlight as he sighs out, grounds himself past any potential discomfort. Bruce noticed - that Clark did not ask if he's done this before. Trusting him to say if it was going to be a problem. (It isn't. It's been a while, and never with a man, and if Clark wants to twist himself in knots the mental image of a woman fucking him, he can ask later. But it isn't a problem.) When he skims back down and takes him in hand, it's gentle, exploratory, mapping and memorizing the feel of him. The shape and weight and heat of him, knowing Clark's going to fuck him with that in a minute—
He has not let himself think of the dangers of doing this face to face. How terrifying it'll be. It makes him ball his pinned hand into a fist out of reflex, but he masters it in a heartbeat and relaxes. Clark's fingers in him feel good, around when it just feels strange. He's too adept at managing his own body for anything as pedestrian as stretching a muscle to really bother him.
Bruce kisses him, though it's more like just tilting his head up as much as he can, pressing his mouth off-center to Clark's. Sweet while it can be. Another back-and-forth contrast. His breath hitches, when an angle nears correct.
Bruce's breathing shifts, and Clark does that again. Where he has arguably lacked in an extensive amount of experience, he makes up for in attention, in tireless repetition, in the strong desire to please wrapped up in his own very real desire to be pleased back.
And an ability to multitask. He sighs a little as Bruce touches him, and holds his breath when Bruce touches his cock in particular, locking down against the instinct to grind out more satisfaction. Instead, he slowly, gradually works his fingers deeper, palm pressed warm to perineum and thumb digging into the soft flesh of his inner thigh. And he is kissing him by the time he moves his hand, gripping around the base of his own cock. It feels like it's been a long and careful process; it feels like it's been no time at all.
Clark shifts so he can see Bruce when he presses the head of his cock to his ass, and is slow going to sink in, pushing from the hips. He holds onto the other man's leg, pulling knee up and forward even more, that hand still pinning Bruce's arm down. Slow but no effort at all, save to be slow.
Multitasking doesn't quite cover off what his face is doing, mouth half open, eyes hazy.
For a moment, their hands connect. Bruce leaves his loosely over Clark's, around his cock, as he lines up. A small brush of his thumb over his knuckles. And then he has to shift and grab his shoulder, to steady himself by even though he's very much not going anywhere. He slows his breathing, works himself through potential discomfort, and fuck this is a lot. What could he possibly have expected, for any part of Clark's anatomy to be different? He probably doesn't even flinch plucking nose hairs, he thinks, and then nearly laughs at the thought. What the hell.
He has never been so trapped. He has never wanted less to escape.
Clark. Bruce doesn't let himself say it again, not yet.
One heel digs in, lets himself push up against that inescapable force, sending lightning-spikes of sensation through him, up his spine, into his dick, through every joint and nerve. Punching breath out of him, making his vision blur. It's a struggle to keep his eyes open and on Clark's face, locked onto that dreamy mask of concentration, but he refuses to let himself divert anything.
"What are you going to go about it," he demands (again), in a growl.
And nothing else, just his name, breathed out, a response to the feeling of the man beneath him arc up, push back. The hand gipping Bruce's thigh squeezes, an odd feeling, not the desperate grasp of a human person, but what feels like an allowance.
The soft unfocus of his eyes sharpen. The answer to that question is unstoppably: whatever he wants, and the next pump of blood through his body seems to carry electricity, warm where it drains into his groin. Flush against Bruce, inside of Bruce, he is very warm.
Clark lets go of Bruce's leg to clasp his other wrist, and push it down on the mattress as well. There he leans his weight on both, hands almost flat, arms almost straight, back arched to push in deep, and then roll back. He does not press in close enough to provide more relief to Bruce's cock than just an incidental brush.
Fucking him is slow to begin but it doesn't last, eyes locked on his as he picks the tireless pace of his preference.
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and he sinks back against the chair when pushed. The relief that comes with contact reinitiated—well, what did he expect? That he'd say something that would cause Bruce to reject him, after all this? Well, maybe. A lifetime of not saying anything for exactly that reasons is a hard habit to shake. Sometimes, these moments with Bruce are like taking a step in the dark. He's getting used to always landing well.
So Bruce does touch him and Clark tilts his face up, paying some attention to the way his hair is being gripped so he can bend his neck back with it.
"I want that too," he says.
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As if Bruce could ever reject him.
He crowds in close, gets a knee on one side of Clark's, presses his weight in over his lap. It's an expensive chair, and it doesn't creak just yet. God, he just wants to pull his hair until it frays, get Clark flushed and nearly crimson-eyed with shaking hands. He wants to bite the side of his jaw until his teeth crack.
Bad ideas. Impossible ideas.
"What are you going to do about it?"
But they could get somewhere near.
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Comfortable is nowhere to go, and comfortable is the practically limitless depths of Bruce's—desire seems like a small word. Love strains at its definitions too.
If the question hedges on slightly too Socratic for him—a querying twinge of his eyebrows, what is he gonna do about it—it's really his own heartbeat that spurs him on. His hands when he slides them up under Bruce's open shirt are achingly warm, and when he grips the edges of his collar and pulls him down unstoppably into a kiss, so is that.
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(Once, a few years ago, a journalist asked him if he ever thought he'd do anything with the law degree he earned. Not really, he'd said, and downed another drink. I don't remember much of it.)
He goes to that kiss, because he has no choice in the matter. He presses one hand against the side of Clark's throat, fingers digging in at his pulse point, thumb at his jaw. It makes his hand ache. He can't hear the other man's heartbeat, but he can feel it, and maybe if he had the power he'd reach into his chest and feel his whole heart. He's not sure how to make something as intense as they want it (need it) without it being violent but this is somewhere to start, honesty spilled out between them like blood.
I want you to fuck me
is not something he'll say out loud. Yet. He wants Clark to push him again, he wants, he wants. A thousand things. The way he kisses him is too warm in turn in response to that warmth. He's not like this. He doesn't do this, he doesn't let people read things in him, he doesn't permit himself to let emotion speak through sex. He doesn't, he doesn't, he is.
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Clark's hand had landed high on Bruce's leg, the dig of his thumb likely to leave a bruise. He's still thinking it over, what will he do about it, what is he going to, and then it makes an easy flip into what does he want. They both know: something that is too much, and not enough. He swallows just to feel that hold on his neck, blue eyes dark in the dim light, colour sapped from the room—
—a room that is thrown into a blur, for a moment, at least for Bruce. The weight of Clark suddenly lifted beneath him, floor vanishing beneath the foot still balanced against it, a momentary sense of zero gravity, and then he finds his back is pressed to the bed. The only real sense of momentum and inertia being pillowy spring-back of the bed beneath him.
And Clark on him, watching him, knowing too much, hands on his shoulders.
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He's never thought before, specifically, I want to be held down. This isn't that. This is just how to get the other thing, that there isn't a name for, caught in the back of his throat. That's been there for two fucking years.
Bruce gets a knee at the side of Clark's keep, pressed up, grinding against him, the rough feeling of denim against his slacks hardly noticeable for what it is - too focused on Clark himself, every point of contact. He gets a hand between them and scraps down his chest, undoing the closure of the other man's jeans, tugging down for as much as the pin is giving him room for. Not much. Shocked at himself, how hard he is, and he'd be embarrassed about it if there was anything left to be embarrassed about, between them.
Looks at him the whole time. Like he might say something.
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Clark smooths his hands around from shoulders to Bruce's throat, thumb stroking along the line from collar to beneath his chin, a hold that keeps him still so Clark can bend down to kiss him again.
It's different, not pretending. There have been casual hook ups in the past he has spooked from just the little things—forgetting to roll when pushed, or failing to react when someone is rough.
Some of the kinks (as it were) worked out for the first time with Lois. Not all of 'em.
He slides a hand between them as well, fingers smoothing down Bruce's abdomen, fingers dipping inside his pants. There is the sound of seams in stress and a tear of fabric, waistband immediately looser than before as knuckles push past. "Sorry," doesn't sound sorry when it's breathed like that against your neck.
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One hand goes around Clark's wrist, at his own throat, and he lets the other move more idly - ignoring his own torn trousers to touch Clark, rub at his stiff cock and slide his fingers around it. A slow contrast to the unhinged stops and starts of the rest of their contact. The sexuality of it, at least this part, seems secondary to whatever else they're doing to each other.
Not that he doesn't want to get off. He's predictable like that.
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The next adjustment his subtle, but has him further Bruce by just a fraction, hips pushing forward and into the hand stroking him.
Watching him carefully—the room not so dark that Bruce can't find that small blot of darker pigmentation in blue eyes, that comical gesture to defect—Clark settles his palm a little more firmly in place. A flick of a glance, maybe checking the anatomy beneath the layers, before his fingers squeeze.
Just a little. Just enough, for the next thump of heartbeat, rushing blood through major arteries, is felt deeper.
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His hand grips so hard at Clark's wrist but it's just holding him, not pushing him forward, not trying to pull him away. Slowly, because of course he's the sort of lunatic who can hold his breath for long minutes and ignore the potential pain of bruising on his larynx, Bruce's awareness narrows to Clark's face, and the sound of his pulse hammering in his ears, everything going pinpointed. His other hand has lost its focus and is just clutching at Clark's hip with that same aimless viciousness, holding without intent to push him one way or the other.
As if he could.
(He's still so fucking hard. Maybe more.)
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Clark holds him there for as long as he thinks is worth the risk. His other hand glides again down the centre of Bruce's chest, resting his palm against his erection, both coaxing arousal and relieving it with that warm friction.
Slowly, the iron collar of grip at Bruce's neck lessens, slips into something tender. As soon as he breathes easy, Clark wants that too, kissing him warm and messy and full of desire.
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Between that and Clark's hand on his cock he's stupid for a moment, dazed, melted uselessness between him with a look in his eyes that betrays having briefly been in some other dimension.
"Fuck," he grates, into that kiss. Brain clicking back online, hands in Clark's hair again. Gives as good as he's given, and that's another dizzying contrast, like shoving his head into hot water after cold. (What the hell is Alfred going to think, if he glimpses bruises from hands around his throat. Maybe he'll just hide for a week.) Still with edges of twilight clinging to him, Bruce removes a hand and stretches it towards the bedside stand, though he can't quite reach it while pinned. An ocean of a bed, for someone his height, and company. So he says, "Grab that," in a voice that doesn't sound used to a lack of compliance, despite all of this. Because the way he pushes up, grinding hard against hard, is all tangled in shredded fabric and the cold metal closure of a denim zip, and there's lube in the drawer.
(Along with some prescription bottles and other assorted sins, but he's been training himself out of the impulse to hide that sort of shit in a lead box. Clark knows. It's a whatever.)
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A later time. Because right now he feels like he's been horny for approximately eighty years and it's a problem.
He turns his head at Bruce's direction, catches his own breath, and moves off of the other man to flop diagonal across the mattress to reach for the stand. It is a possibly necessary moment of pause, not just to slow down a second, but also for Clark to kick his own jeans and underwear off without tearing anything further.
There's the telltale skitter and rustle of the drawer being opened, lube taken out, and then the mattress creaks as Clark closes back in. "I wanna fuck you," he says, mouth grazing against Bruce's shoulder. Low, husky, even if it's not his throat that's been constricted with any consequence lately. "Is that what you want?"
In part, part of the mood, but also, a real question.
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Struck by it, he smiles while Clark's distracted. (Or is he. Superspeed, superbrain, does he see; Bruce can't know.) With quick grace befitting of a ninja he slips out of the remains of his clothes, comfortable nude despite the vast coverage of scars, and when Clark comes back to mouth at his shoulder, Bruce is halfway up on his side, body inclined towards his, welcoming, hands gliding, as hungry and demanding as they are warm.
"Yes." Like a lance to his gut. Something hotter than he has words for. Like heat vision. Hah. "That's what I want."
Low and earnest. He doesn't shake when he says it. Somehow. Bruce presses a kiss to his mouth.
"Have you, before?"
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He shakes his head, but finds his voice. "No," quietly spoken between them. "Had to be careful."
More careful. Extra careful. In the few moments he's been taken to bed by another man, the prospect always seemed stressful in a way it doesn't now. The potential for harm, yes, and the potential for somehow being found out, an ever present spectre of possibility. Since then, he's had some time to figure himself out, both in those moments stepping off the ruins of a Kryptonian spacecraft and learning to fly, and in the past minute of holding Bruce's throat so gently, like a butterfly in cupped hands.
Okay, well. It's not nothing to do with Bruce.
"I will be," he says, with a crack of a smile.
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He imagines that the difference between being extra careful with someone else and less careful than that with Bruce is only a small degree. But he also imagines Clark has never got to change that dial at all.
The kiss ends with Bruce's teeth on his lower lip. He wishes Clark could... Well, again. It's not even about wanting to get off on pain, which he doesn't, strictly speaking. As dissected in stops and starts, it's that he gets off on Clark. But he wants him to feel out of control in a way that doesn't result in someone dead or leveled buildings. Pipe dreams. (Nightmares.)
"Do you want to use anything else?" he rakes his nails down Clark's chest, settles a hand at the base of his cock, not quite touching him close enough. It's not actually an insensitive joke about alien STIs. It's an insensitive joke about Bruce's own status as somewhat prolific, he won't be offended if Clark would rather err on the side of condoms. Even though they've already been drowning in each other's kisses while he's been bleeding from the mouth. And he's clean anyway. But, you know. Courtesy.
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There's probably some expert out there that could tell him why he desires so much for this man in particular to touch him a whole lot, but—
He's busy. And he kisses him, murmurs a negatory sound and an, "I'm good," while he's there. The mattress dips and sighs beneath the shift of weight as Clark moves to crowd over Bruce again, lifting himself up a little. The articulately combed waves of his hair have been thoroughly disrupted over the course of the last several minutes. In spite of certain fan blog essays on the subject that Clark definitely hasn't read on slow news days, it doesn't take a lot.
"Where do you wanna be? On your back?"
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They should not, under any circumstances, consult an expert.
"Is that where you want me?" Bruce sits up enough so that he's crowding Clark from below, held there by just his abdominal muscles, speaking close and low. "Unable to look away from you? So you can watch my face? Or do you want to hold me down with your hand at the back of my neck?"
When he grabs Clark's jaw, it's with the kind of force that would hurt a human. As if he could hold him there, force him to maintain eye contact, bruise the tendons under his chin.
"Tell me."
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Psychologically, however.
Clark does maintain eye contact, all the while that specific and perfect stillness sets through his muscles. Never as tense as a human being would have to be. Still, this close, Bruce can feel the tic and tug of muscle and tendon, and see the micro-shifts of pupil, eye colour dispersion. He might sense the fist Clark makes in the sheets next to him, the held breath.
Off-kilter until he isn't. Unmoving until he has a hand around Bruce's arm, but it's not firm, just yet. It's a gentle splay of fingers across the back of his wrist, thumb press light where his pulse might be, like they're sharing a romantic moment watching the sunset, and he's about to say something less direct than—
"On your back," he says, with a new rough edge in his voice, like maybe his mouth went dry at some point there.
And he moves Bruce's hand away from his jaw, and he pushes it right back so that that arm is pinned on the mattress beside his head, that the rest of him has to follow. Bruce can tell there is no real weight on his arm, holding it down, even as Clark pushes over him. "I wanna see that look on your face again. Like you don't know where you are, what you're doing."
He slips a thigh between Bruce's, nudging one aside.
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What other voices are just mine?
There's no weight on his arm, but to move it, he'd have to rip it off. Like a fox gnawing off a limb to escape a trap. He lets his legs move - like he has a real choice - and hitches one knee up, calf curling around the back of Clark's thigh, coaxing, daring. His unpinned hand moves to snag the lube, clicking the top open, getting some on his fingers. He is still sat up an inch over the mattress, forcing Clark to force him.
"As if there is anything," his voice is a deep hiss, rasping like cold water over gravel, "Anything at all, that could be mistaken for you."
He'll know because it's Clark. The only inescapable thing. He grabs the other man's hand, covering it with that slipper substance. (High quality shit. Neato.) He is not suicidal enough to just slick his cock for him, he wants it rough, not requiring a visit to the emergency room. Though the thought of it, so on the edge, is its own kind of tempting. Instead there's that, a pointed instruction as biting as Tell me. Don't you know what you're supposed to be doing with that, Kansas?
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Gentle, here, this part necessitates that, just as the rest of what they are doing requires the occasional exchange of information. What are you doing, where do you wanna be, what do you want.
"Touch me," he says. It's meant to be an order. It comes out more like a wish.
But he's not slowing for anything. Warm fingers and cool slipperiness stroking sensitive skin, finding that give, pushing inside just shallowly at first.
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"Clark," is an exhale, as warm as he'd been harsh, a moment ago. He flexes his captured wrist, as delicate as moth wings beneath his alien grip. Of course I will. His touch shifts up at first, over his chest, through so-human hair and tracing unreal contours, to drag his fingertips over the circle of one nipple, featherlight as he sighs out, grounds himself past any potential discomfort. Bruce noticed - that Clark did not ask if he's done this before. Trusting him to say if it was going to be a problem. (It isn't. It's been a while, and never with a man, and if Clark wants to twist himself in knots the mental image of a woman fucking him, he can ask later. But it isn't a problem.) When he skims back down and takes him in hand, it's gentle, exploratory, mapping and memorizing the feel of him. The shape and weight and heat of him, knowing Clark's going to fuck him with that in a minute—
He has not let himself think of the dangers of doing this face to face. How terrifying it'll be. It makes him ball his pinned hand into a fist out of reflex, but he masters it in a heartbeat and relaxes. Clark's fingers in him feel good, around when it just feels strange. He's too adept at managing his own body for anything as pedestrian as stretching a muscle to really bother him.
Bruce kisses him, though it's more like just tilting his head up as much as he can, pressing his mouth off-center to Clark's. Sweet while it can be. Another back-and-forth contrast. His breath hitches, when an angle nears correct.
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And an ability to multitask. He sighs a little as Bruce touches him, and holds his breath when Bruce touches his cock in particular, locking down against the instinct to grind out more satisfaction. Instead, he slowly, gradually works his fingers deeper, palm pressed warm to perineum and thumb digging into the soft flesh of his inner thigh. And he is kissing him by the time he moves his hand, gripping around the base of his own cock. It feels like it's been a long and careful process; it feels like it's been no time at all.
Clark shifts so he can see Bruce when he presses the head of his cock to his ass, and is slow going to sink in, pushing from the hips. He holds onto the other man's leg, pulling knee up and forward even more, that hand still pinning Bruce's arm down. Slow but no effort at all, save to be slow.
Multitasking doesn't quite cover off what his face is doing, mouth half open, eyes hazy.
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He has never been so trapped. He has never wanted less to escape.
Clark. Bruce doesn't let himself say it again, not yet.
One heel digs in, lets himself push up against that inescapable force, sending lightning-spikes of sensation through him, up his spine, into his dick, through every joint and nerve. Punching breath out of him, making his vision blur. It's a struggle to keep his eyes open and on Clark's face, locked onto that dreamy mask of concentration, but he refuses to let himself divert anything.
"What are you going to go about it," he demands (again), in a growl.
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And nothing else, just his name, breathed out, a response to the feeling of the man beneath him arc up, push back. The hand gipping Bruce's thigh squeezes, an odd feeling, not the desperate grasp of a human person, but what feels like an allowance.
The soft unfocus of his eyes sharpen. The answer to that question is unstoppably: whatever he wants, and the next pump of blood through his body seems to carry electricity, warm where it drains into his groin. Flush against Bruce, inside of Bruce, he is very warm.
Clark lets go of Bruce's leg to clasp his other wrist, and push it down on the mattress as well. There he leans his weight on both, hands almost flat, arms almost straight, back arched to push in deep, and then roll back. He does not press in close enough to provide more relief to Bruce's cock than just an incidental brush.
Fucking him is slow to begin but it doesn't last, eyes locked on his as he picks the tireless pace of his preference.
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