Traditionally a bad patient, Bruce shows rare patience in sitting still for Clark, allowing the detailed attention. His free hand sometimes helps selecting the next necessary item, sometimes strays to Clark's side. Reaffirming. These dreams - visions, whatever they may or may not be - won't change how he feels. Haven't changed how he feels. He's wondered, sometimes, if the reason he can't stop and can't kill himself in his dreams is because he still loves Clark so much.
"Mm."
Universal Hold on a second. Reasons for made obvious when they're through, because Bruce has to move to the other side of his primary computer station. A few utilitarian shelves packed with miscellaneous drives, files of hand-written notes, a few books. A ream of printer paper and a cup that doesn't match the ones upstairs. From it, he removes a leather-bound journal; something a normal person would find too expensive to have just to kick around with, but that Bruce probably didn't think twice about chucking into a shopping cart.
Sketches and notes, inside. Bruce is not an artist in any spiritual sense, but he can draw shockingly accurately from memory. There's not enough soul in it to impress a curator, and yet it's lifelike enough to certainly annoy the shit out of any actual artists. Machinelike. A skill honed to help him with investigative work and nothing more. It starts with a sketch of a lanky man in strange armor, and then his face, scruffy, wide-eyed, partitioned by a strange helmet, but still obviously Barry. Notes next to it show Bruce was hypothesizing what the armor could be for, specifically. Early days, innocent reflection. Doodles of creatures that look like parademons. Absent remarks about meditation. A capital Greek omega symbol, a skyline.
Superman. Lines of his face cruel and furious. A note. Is that what he looks like? Satellite. CCTV. Sure I've seen it. Before any news camera had caught him close up. Barry, again. Multiple women in armor. A trident. A detailed layout of an alien ship never seen before on Earth. More recently, a page crammed with writing describing From Vic.
As the pages go on, the more distressed the sketches become. Pages of notes comparing dates of dreams to dates of appearances. No more drawings of Superman; in some bare-bones landscapes, there are obvious absences, where he might be. Bruce censoring his presence, too guilty about his subconscious sticking on that train even though he himself has moved on.
Clark trades medical kit for book. Bruce's hand will need ice, some kind of NSAID, but he's done his bit, careful and particular.
Now, his attention turns to pages, pausing over the first drawing before he begins leafing through. The cast of characters, expanding, diminishing. His presence, and his absence. The blasted landscape, worse than he'd previously imagined the world looking like under Darkseid's influence. Parademons like locusts, stripping down cities. The dates, the notes. Once he stops seeig and starts reading, he can kind of imagine it more like a branching tree, but with pieces missing.
He spends the time, absorbing it all, expression serious. Like he wants to share this, wants to stand where Bruce is standing, where Vic is standing. It has occurred to him he could feel a way about Bruce keeping this from him, but what's the point, when he can understand why?
He starts from the beginning with better context, but doesn't get all the way back to the end again before commenting.
"A fixed point," Clark says. "Darkseid, on earth." Lois, dead. Clark, taken. "And then variations. Even if they look similar, they're not set in stone."
It sounds hollow even to Bruce; his expression as he looks at Clark is very
:/
Self-aware that by now the coincidences have gone from the realm of probable doubt to avalanche. The obvious citations are his own paranoia and the shifting nature of the 'timeline', which have allowed him to halfway ignore it, or at least convince himself that the chances of it meaning anything besides subconscious fear were low enough to be negligible.
Clark looks up, an open kind of puzzlement at the proposition that these dreams mean nothing, that they aren't authentic views of a possible and disastrous future. He suppposes he hadn't come down on either side until viewing Vic's notes solidified them one way or another, along with the a premonition of Barry Allen, and if he has to think about it—
Sure, coincidence, let's try that on for size. Vic could have seen all kinds of things. Bruce could be operating beneath some subconscious aftereffect if his steel trap of a brain had ever seen Barry Allen before and noticed something different about him, if the substance of that dream had only materialised after the fact which leads to the conclusion that Bruce is unstable. An unreliable narrator.
Clark offers an alternative. "Maybe it's sabotage," he says, book open and neglected in his hand. "External psychic influence, a campaign. You brought us altogether, maybe something out there thinks they could drive us all apart with enough—of this."
He closes the book. "I think you'd know," quietly.
"I want to think I'd know," he says, something cracking earnestly in him, looking at Clark in a way that actually demonstrates how uneasy he feels, instead of just implying it in controlled half-glimpses. "I've thought of sabotage. I've thought of too many things. Mostly I just thought it'd stop."
And now it's crept up on him, and he's still panicking in his sleep, and he grazed Clark in a frantic bid to escape himself, and Vic's seeing it, and.
What the fuck.
"You wouldn't do any of that." His voice is a harsh whisper. Utter conviction. "It isn't you, I'm not afraid of you. So why am I still seeing it."
The book is set aside, focus forwards, now. He believes Bruce, that he's not afraid of him, and the summoning of the fact that it has to be said prickles cold over his heart, but it's part of the deal. Whatever their deal is.
"I'm sorry you are," Clark adds. You don't deserve it. Like Bruce Wayne needs encouragement to place the world on his shoulders. "And if I could take it away, I would. But if there is anyone on this whole world who could do something good with it, whatever it might be, whatever it means, it's you."
Faith is a two-way street. One of those simple concepts that a scared and isolated little boy in Kansas had a hard time with, the adult version not much better, not until lately.
He has to say it, because he has to know that Clark knows. Nearly shattering his hand flailing at him and only feeling bad about being violent notwithstanding. When Clark had first returned from the grave, and nearly fried Batman where he stood, Bruce's immediate concern was that when he came back to himself, he'd be devastated that he'd done it.
(In front of half of Metropolis, anyway. Bruce had accepted, the second Clark turned to him, that he had a right to end his life if he felt it was justified. The world needs Superman, not Batman.)
Clark scoots nearer, having claimed a rolly chair to sit and read. Near enough that he can reach out and snag Bruce's unfucked hand, use it to lever himself closer. They've exchanged enough tenderness between wild swings on waking and now that he feels it won't be unwelcome.
"You," he says, "brought me back. After these dreams started."
And maybe they'd been dismissed as nightmares only at the time, but he doesn't think so. Is that what he looks like?, written beside his portrait. Bruce believed, either way, that regardless of the risk, Superman was better to have than have not. That whatever he'd seen in him, in those last moments of hardly knowing each other, and whatever came after, had been enough.
Believing right back feels natural. Necessary. He thinks about saying that, and then says instead, "You know I love you, right?"
"You are so much more than the things my head could ever torture me with," he says in a rough exhale, pained-sounding almost, for the bleeding sincerity of it. Bruce has never committed himself to anyone like he has Clark, and never to any ideal perhaps his own— which had become so broken as to be unrecognizable. You healed me, he struggles to explain. Not by dying. It was before that, when you let me help.
Maybe he could have even gotten some of that out, stilted and strange as it would have been.
For a while, Bruce just looks at him.
Pulse doing another thing. Sounds different than a nightmare.
Vitals point to that it hadn't sunk in, but Clark's not about to make him out to be a liar. He's going to smile at him (dimmer, the occasion puts kind of a pall over the place, but no less warm), and then duck his head and bring Bruce's hand closer to his mouth so he can lay a kiss against his knuckles. And linger there, a short sigh felt against his skin, a flutter of eyelashes.
It should be crippling, this kind of pressure. Maybe later, if signs indicate that Bruce is receiving actionable intel on something inevitable, Clark will be appropriately scared shitless. Maybe. It takes a lot. (This is a lot.) But the way Bruce says that, of what he is, doesn't sound like expectation, but like fact.
But it's not just what Clark does or does not become. It's the thing that Bruce is hurtling to, supposedly, something terrible. Lois' death, unacceptable, and Bruce deserves better than being locked into some awful mistake, whether it's fear of his own making or something real.
There is a world of difference between de-identified awareness and hearing words out loud. A vast divide, one that Bruce has not looked at properly. He has thought it, certainly, never with any particular weight or moment of deliberation— it's an easy fact, one of the easiest things that's ever passed through him, about Clark. He loves him, he is in love with him, and those have been true things for some time. Informing him would just be... infringement.
But why else would Clark put up with him.
His heart aches when his hand is kissed, held so close. After a moment, he steps in, against the rolling chair and the vee of Clark's knees, shifting that hand up to trail fingers in his hair, cradle his head.
Lois dead is unthinkable. So much that Bruce struggles to focus on it, which is itself perhaps worrying; Why can't I see it? But if the answer is that his error is so grave that the way to prevent it is to die before timelines converge, well. Maybe he'll have to find the spine after all. Accept that his refusal to die is ego, as well as skill. Clark wouldn't be so weak in the wake of his death, would he?
(Oh, a new thought. Fuck.)
"I should have told you sooner."
About his dreams. About Vic, about telling Diana. (About being in love with him.) Bruce takes a deep breath and lets it out. Well, he could say. That's what my nightmare was about. Back to bed?
Clark's arm curls loose around the back of Bruce's thighs. Easy to lean into his hip, and just stay there, both of them half held, in the odd silence of—all this. Bruce says he should have told him sooner while he's calculating the worth in telling Lois, and it feels like something he will inevitably do. It's less he doesn't want to distress her
which he doesn't
and more that he's not sure what she could do with that information, and she always wants to do something with information. But who knows. She's good at finding angles.
He doesn't verbalise an answer here, and now, and instead just hugs Bruce a little tighter before he lists backwards, looking back up at him. "How's sleep sound?" A subtle :/-ish smile, conscious that sleep probably sounds, like, bad, and rephrases; "Do you want to try?"
"Lost cause," he murmurs, a voice of obvious experience. He cards his fingers through Clark's hair and imagines him like he is in the dream, and finds it impossible to overlay. Draped in red again, to match the glow of his eyes. When Bruce had looked into the nuclear reactor and seen Clark in that black suit, his expression serious and almost meditative as he blasted Steppenwolf away in a lance of heat, he'd thought it was beautiful.
Maybe it still will be if he incinerates him. Death in the dream is hard to recall in specifics; just the terror and sadness in those last seconds. Regret that feels both too personal and not personal enough. What am I missing?
His hand pauses its idle touch. What is someone who doesn't know me missing? Mm. Curls fingers in, disturbs Clark's hair further. Affectionate about it, like mussing its slicked-back style during normal hours.
There's a lot of thinking happening up there, probably, and Clark is content to sit patiently while it happens. Bruce's hand in his hair is nice, too.
Bruce is human and humans don't have prophetic dreams. It's a thought he turns over in his own mind, a concept smooth as a river stone and curious all the same. There was a good portion of Clark's childhood where he'd believed himself human-but-different, and maybe even long after, until he stepped foot inside the Kryptonian scout ship and spoke to the holographic memory of Jor-El and learned of his home planet, and maybe even after then, sometimes.
The concept of human-but-different feels easy. The hard line logic of his ancestry doesn't take away from it. He finds that he can believe that Bruce Wayne, human, has visions of the future. That such things can happen. Who's to say they don't?
If they're not sleeping, he thinks about options. Breakfast, obviously. A walk outside while the night is pulled back from the sky. Maybe something's on TV.
He smiles when Bruce asks that question, crinkled amusement at the corners of his eyes, and says, "No, I haven't. They open?"
Faintly amused, "We've been down here for a minute."
Bruce had nearly been surprised, too, when he caught sight of the clock on the edge of the security monitor. But it turns out that all his anguished silences and the surreal absorption of his journal has taken some hours; by the time they sort themselves out and pick up breakfast somewhere mundane, they won't even be first in line.
It'll give him time. Taking some painkillers, selecting a suitably civilian (but not socialite) outfit, getting in the car, finding a diner off the highway. Maybe sitting in the car and eating. Shoving a breakfast burrito at Clark's face. Looking at a shark. Contemplating the future and the-l-word.
"Besides, it'll be funny if you have to ditch me while I'm taking a picture of a seal, or something."
Clark's face does that thing, listening at a distance, focusing on the sound of early morning traffic in Gotham City (which sounds distinct to the late night traffic of Gotham City) and blinking his acknowledgment. Time flies when you're having fun.
"That would be funny," he agrees, standing. "I don't think I knew you guys had an aquarium."
Mild shade. Reflex. Either Metropolese or Kansan, pick one, or both.
Retaliatory banter is (maybe) deflected with a quick smile and moving on past Bruce's shoulder to go sort through the clothes he has here, contemplate for a second a quick fly over back to his place to broaden his selection before settling instead on blue jeans, plaid shirt in deep green, thick-framed glasses with prescription lenses he can ignore at will.
A Clark Kent costume, in case of emergencies. Like this one.
Ordinary attire is sometimes a struggle, as Bruce's socialite costumes are inappropriate for real-life settings, and what he chooses to wear in his free time is an uninspired gaggle of dark-colored nothingness, jeans and slacks and t-shirts with open button-ups thrown over. He settles on a black turtleneck with a coat that still looks expensive, but passes for ordinary in Gotham; everyone's got at least one pricey coat, in the noir-dense city, since they never go out of style.
GCU football cap tossed into the cup holder of the second most annoying Mercedes he owns, and has to fuss with the seat for a while ("Diana was using it") before applying sunglasses so that he doesn't burst into flames. No vintage Aston Martin for trips downtown; there's no point inviting vandalism.
Bruce's driving is abysmal. For anyone not looking to win a rally car race, anyway.
"Are eggs also off the table?" In a parking lot. He puts the hat on, in preparation for getting breakfast. Are eggs dairy. Bruce has no idea.
"Well, I've considered incorporating ethically sourced eggs," says Clark, terminal fan of breakfast, conflict written clear into his expression as he considers the building through the windshield. "They call that 'vegganism'."
A beat, and then—he just gets out of the car.
Tofu is not on the menu for this place, but apparently the question is asked enough that they can throw something together involving potato hash and beans, and force him to admit out loud that he would not like any cheese in his breakfast burrito. A large coffee to go, a decision to eat in the Mercedes with Clark's unprompted promise not to spill anything.
He is already a bite in while they cross the parking lot. Barry does this too. They'd probably corroborate the thing about high metabolisms.
A timely escape. The passenger-side car door shuts at a perfect Vine edit moment over the start of Bruce's abrupt bark laughter.
Inside: he chugs an entire coffee while their orders are being prepared, in an impressive gambit that might do more to suggest he isn't simply human than seeing prophetic visions of doom, and then gets it refilled before they leave, styrofoam over waxy cardboard holding the keys to life. If not for the luxury sunglasses and chipper companion, the exhausted grit of his voice and the tape around one hand would lend themselves to whispers. He stuffs $65 in the tip jar.
That's too bad about the cheese, says a wordless look. With dignity, Bruce is refraining from eating his burrito until they are back in the vehicle, which has seen worse things than breakfast. It'll survive.
"Did you go to drive-in theaters much, in Kansas?"
There's probably a lot of things that Clark is doing with his life and choices that might have had Jon Kent throw his hat on the ground, and not even eating cheese might be one of them (because voting for Clinton over Dole was going to go to Clark's Kryptonian grave).
Still, he has no complaints about his purchase, a couple of big bites in to curb hunger before contentedly taking his time, fussily tearing and rerolling wrapping to manage salsa and other bits.
"Uh huh," Clark says, returning to his coffee. "Sometimes. I could usually talk dad into letting me take the truck out, and they didn't do much to check ID or anything. Classics and horror movies, mostly. Shut down a few years ago, or longer." A quizzical head tip of recollection. "I think there's a Dillons there now."
Not eating cheese, sitting in a Mercedes-Benz with his boyfriend, while married. A plethora of sins. And difficult ones, too. No cheese is a soulful pain, on the east coast. Vermont, man. (Proximity to other demons. In fairness, Thomas Wayne would have also disliked Bernie Sanders, having been good-hearted but staunchly preferring to be charitable over being taxed.)
"Mm." Affirmative. Car on, but not moving. If he's only got one and a half hands, he's not going to eat a burrito and drive 120 miles per hour. He could, but the salsa would be pushing his luck.
"I ended up a fan," because for fifteen years I couldn't go into a regular cinema, "and sitting around in cars always makes me think of them. There's one on the other side of the city, still, but it's under the municipal airport. Which should be a crime, I think."
"Disrespectful," Clark agrees, around his next bite, quick on the back of that comment.
It's an easy memory lane to go down. A highly awkward date with Lana Lang immediately springs to mind, at an age where girls seemed to have five years experience at acting like adults than every boy he knew, including (especially) himself. Other times, alone. Friends and making them hadn't come so easy, even if he was allowed to drive around on the occasional Friday night at age fifteen, which is.
Impressive, on reflection. What a nerd.
"I took a girl out to see Godzilla. The one from 1950-something. I thought it was pretty great," in the tone of someone who still thinks it was pretty great, awful American dub work and all. "I take it your taste runs a little more..." What's the word. "Less lizard monsters." Nailed it.
"'54," Bruce offers, about what year Godzilla came out. Dramatic - or not - pause, during which Clark gets to wonder about his tastes, while he gets through some more burrito and washes it down with coffee. A critical look. Are you saying he wouldn't like a lizard monster, Kent.
"That's one of the best movies ever made. And one of the most visceral, dealing with fears about nuclear holocaust so soon after the war."
And pleased. Bruce Wayne likes movies, and movies he likes. He starts describing with enthusiasm the plot of the second one he ever saw, unable to recall the name, and enough cross-reference between them identifies it as Invasion of Astro-Monster which also tells on him for his taste levels, in spite of a strong opener.
A hard pivot, then, asking, "Did you ever see The Day the Earth Stood Still? I could probably watch Wise movies all day," as he balls up the burrito wrapper, containing all debris within. He is, at least, a neat eater.
Sometimes, when Clark hits a particularly charming stride, it's shocking— not that he can be that way, but that Bruce gets to experience it. Unbelievably lucky, to sink his teeth into and choke on all the bloody mess of intensity that they have, and also, listen to him ramble on about old sci-fi movies. This morning, it isn't a shock he feels, but something gentler; a squeeze around something inside, conjuring an ache that has nothing to do with bruising.
Bruce eats his breakfast, quietness of his smile obscured behind burrito-or-cup held up to his face (showing his hand in his gaze, visible since he'd pushed his sunglasses up to the top of his head).
That future won't come. It isn't Clark. He won't let it be.
Bruce nods, when they swerve from kaiju to tales of human aggression versus aliens demanding peace. (It still isn't Clark.) "On the nose," he teases softly, still left with a corner of breakfast burrito, mostly folded up tortilla and leftover hot sauce. "One of the greats. In both instances, film and director. The first of his I saw was Born to Kill - too young, probably, but it was sort of therapeutic."
Of course it was. Bruce folds the foil and wax paper over itself, not so much buying time as just thinking.
"We should watch Haunting sometime. I always thought it was sort of romantic."
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"Mm."
Universal Hold on a second. Reasons for made obvious when they're through, because Bruce has to move to the other side of his primary computer station. A few utilitarian shelves packed with miscellaneous drives, files of hand-written notes, a few books. A ream of printer paper and a cup that doesn't match the ones upstairs. From it, he removes a leather-bound journal; something a normal person would find too expensive to have just to kick around with, but that Bruce probably didn't think twice about chucking into a shopping cart.
Sketches and notes, inside. Bruce is not an artist in any spiritual sense, but he can draw shockingly accurately from memory. There's not enough soul in it to impress a curator, and yet it's lifelike enough to certainly annoy the shit out of any actual artists. Machinelike. A skill honed to help him with investigative work and nothing more. It starts with a sketch of a lanky man in strange armor, and then his face, scruffy, wide-eyed, partitioned by a strange helmet, but still obviously Barry. Notes next to it show Bruce was hypothesizing what the armor could be for, specifically. Early days, innocent reflection. Doodles of creatures that look like parademons. Absent remarks about meditation. A capital Greek omega symbol, a skyline.
Superman. Lines of his face cruel and furious. A note. Is that what he looks like? Satellite. CCTV. Sure I've seen it. Before any news camera had caught him close up. Barry, again. Multiple women in armor. A trident. A detailed layout of an alien ship never seen before on Earth. More recently, a page crammed with writing describing From Vic.
As the pages go on, the more distressed the sketches become. Pages of notes comparing dates of dreams to dates of appearances. No more drawings of Superman; in some bare-bones landscapes, there are obvious absences, where he might be. Bruce censoring his presence, too guilty about his subconscious sticking on that train even though he himself has moved on.
Bruce hands it to him.
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Now, his attention turns to pages, pausing over the first drawing before he begins leafing through. The cast of characters, expanding, diminishing. His presence, and his absence. The blasted landscape, worse than he'd previously imagined the world looking like under Darkseid's influence. Parademons like locusts, stripping down cities. The dates, the notes. Once he stops seeig and starts reading, he can kind of imagine it more like a branching tree, but with pieces missing.
He spends the time, absorbing it all, expression serious. Like he wants to share this, wants to stand where Bruce is standing, where Vic is standing. It has occurred to him he could feel a way about Bruce keeping this from him, but what's the point, when he can understand why?
He starts from the beginning with better context, but doesn't get all the way back to the end again before commenting.
"A fixed point," Clark says. "Darkseid, on earth." Lois, dead. Clark, taken. "And then variations. Even if they look similar, they're not set in stone."
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It sounds hollow even to Bruce; his expression as he looks at Clark is very
:/
Self-aware that by now the coincidences have gone from the realm of probable doubt to avalanche. The obvious citations are his own paranoia and the shifting nature of the 'timeline', which have allowed him to halfway ignore it, or at least convince himself that the chances of it meaning anything besides subconscious fear were low enough to be negligible.
Also—
"I'm human. I don't have prophetic powers."
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Sure, coincidence, let's try that on for size. Vic could have seen all kinds of things. Bruce could be operating beneath some subconscious aftereffect if his steel trap of a brain had ever seen Barry Allen before and noticed something different about him, if the substance of that dream had only materialised after the fact which leads to the conclusion that Bruce is unstable. An unreliable narrator.
Clark offers an alternative. "Maybe it's sabotage," he says, book open and neglected in his hand. "External psychic influence, a campaign. You brought us altogether, maybe something out there thinks they could drive us all apart with enough—of this."
He closes the book. "I think you'd know," quietly.
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And now it's crept up on him, and he's still panicking in his sleep, and he grazed Clark in a frantic bid to escape himself, and Vic's seeing it, and.
What the fuck.
"You wouldn't do any of that." His voice is a harsh whisper. Utter conviction. "It isn't you, I'm not afraid of you. So why am I still seeing it."
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The book is set aside, focus forwards, now. He believes Bruce, that he's not afraid of him, and the summoning of the fact that it has to be said prickles cold over his heart, but it's part of the deal. Whatever their deal is.
"I'm sorry you are," Clark adds. You don't deserve it. Like Bruce Wayne needs encouragement to place the world on his shoulders. "And if I could take it away, I would. But if there is anyone on this whole world who could do something good with it, whatever it might be, whatever it means, it's you."
Faith is a two-way street. One of those simple concepts that a scared and isolated little boy in Kansas had a hard time with, the adult version not much better, not until lately.
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(In front of half of Metropolis, anyway. Bruce had accepted, the second Clark turned to him, that he had a right to end his life if he felt it was justified. The world needs Superman, not Batman.)
Bruce closes his eyes.
"How do you do that."
Clark is so much better at this faith thing.
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"You," he says, "brought me back. After these dreams started."
And maybe they'd been dismissed as nightmares only at the time, but he doesn't think so. Is that what he looks like?, written beside his portrait. Bruce believed, either way, that regardless of the risk, Superman was better to have than have not. That whatever he'd seen in him, in those last moments of hardly knowing each other, and whatever came after, had been enough.
Believing right back feels natural. Necessary. He thinks about saying that, and then says instead, "You know I love you, right?"
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Maybe he could have even gotten some of that out, stilted and strange as it would have been.
For a while, Bruce just looks at him.
Pulse doing another thing. Sounds different than a nightmare.
"I suppose I do know that."
Holy shit?
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Vitals point to that it hadn't sunk in, but Clark's not about to make him out to be a liar. He's going to smile at him (dimmer, the occasion puts kind of a pall over the place, but no less warm), and then duck his head and bring Bruce's hand closer to his mouth so he can lay a kiss against his knuckles. And linger there, a short sigh felt against his skin, a flutter of eyelashes.
It should be crippling, this kind of pressure. Maybe later, if signs indicate that Bruce is receiving actionable intel on something inevitable, Clark will be appropriately scared shitless. Maybe. It takes a lot. (This is a lot.) But the way Bruce says that, of what he is, doesn't sound like expectation, but like fact.
But it's not just what Clark does or does not become. It's the thing that Bruce is hurtling to, supposedly, something terrible. Lois' death, unacceptable, and Bruce deserves better than being locked into some awful mistake, whether it's fear of his own making or something real.
"We'll figure it out," Clark says.
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But why else would Clark put up with him.
His heart aches when his hand is kissed, held so close. After a moment, he steps in, against the rolling chair and the vee of Clark's knees, shifting that hand up to trail fingers in his hair, cradle his head.
Lois dead is unthinkable. So much that Bruce struggles to focus on it, which is itself perhaps worrying; Why can't I see it? But if the answer is that his error is so grave that the way to prevent it is to die before timelines converge, well. Maybe he'll have to find the spine after all. Accept that his refusal to die is ego, as well as skill. Clark wouldn't be so weak in the wake of his death, would he?
(Oh, a new thought. Fuck.)
"I should have told you sooner."
About his dreams. About Vic, about telling Diana. (About being in love with him.) Bruce takes a deep breath and lets it out. Well, he could say. That's what my nightmare was about. Back to bed?
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which he doesn't
and more that he's not sure what she could do with that information, and she always wants to do something with information. But who knows. She's good at finding angles.
He doesn't verbalise an answer here, and now, and instead just hugs Bruce a little tighter before he lists backwards, looking back up at him. "How's sleep sound?" A subtle :/-ish smile, conscious that sleep probably sounds, like, bad, and rephrases; "Do you want to try?"
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Maybe it still will be if he incinerates him. Death in the dream is hard to recall in specifics; just the terror and sadness in those last seconds. Regret that feels both too personal and not personal enough. What am I missing?
His hand pauses its idle touch. What is someone who doesn't know me missing? Mm. Curls fingers in, disturbs Clark's hair further. Affectionate about it, like mussing its slicked-back style during normal hours.
"You ever been to the aquarium here?"
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Bruce is human and humans don't have prophetic dreams. It's a thought he turns over in his own mind, a concept smooth as a river stone and curious all the same. There was a good portion of Clark's childhood where he'd believed himself human-but-different, and maybe even long after, until he stepped foot inside the Kryptonian scout ship and spoke to the holographic memory of Jor-El and learned of his home planet, and maybe even after then, sometimes.
The concept of human-but-different feels easy. The hard line logic of his ancestry doesn't take away from it. He finds that he can believe that Bruce Wayne, human, has visions of the future. That such things can happen. Who's to say they don't?
If they're not sleeping, he thinks about options. Breakfast, obviously. A walk outside while the night is pulled back from the sky. Maybe something's on TV.
He smiles when Bruce asks that question, crinkled amusement at the corners of his eyes, and says, "No, I haven't. They open?"
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Bruce had nearly been surprised, too, when he caught sight of the clock on the edge of the security monitor. But it turns out that all his anguished silences and the surreal absorption of his journal has taken some hours; by the time they sort themselves out and pick up breakfast somewhere mundane, they won't even be first in line.
It'll give him time. Taking some painkillers, selecting a suitably civilian (but not socialite) outfit, getting in the car, finding a diner off the highway. Maybe sitting in the car and eating. Shoving a breakfast burrito at Clark's face. Looking at a shark. Contemplating the future and the-l-word.
"Besides, it'll be funny if you have to ditch me while I'm taking a picture of a seal, or something."
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"That would be funny," he agrees, standing. "I don't think I knew you guys had an aquarium."
Mild shade. Reflex. Either Metropolese or Kansan, pick one, or both.
Retaliatory banter is (maybe) deflected with a quick smile and moving on past Bruce's shoulder to go sort through the clothes he has here, contemplate for a second a quick fly over back to his place to broaden his selection before settling instead on blue jeans, plaid shirt in deep green, thick-framed glasses with prescription lenses he can ignore at will.
A Clark Kent costume, in case of emergencies. Like this one.
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Ordinary attire is sometimes a struggle, as Bruce's socialite costumes are inappropriate for real-life settings, and what he chooses to wear in his free time is an uninspired gaggle of dark-colored nothingness, jeans and slacks and t-shirts with open button-ups thrown over. He settles on a black turtleneck with a coat that still looks expensive, but passes for ordinary in Gotham; everyone's got at least one pricey coat, in the noir-dense city, since they never go out of style.
GCU football cap tossed into the cup holder of the second most annoying Mercedes he owns, and has to fuss with the seat for a while ("Diana was using it") before applying sunglasses so that he doesn't burst into flames. No vintage Aston Martin for trips downtown; there's no point inviting vandalism.
Bruce's driving is abysmal. For anyone not looking to win a rally car race, anyway.
"Are eggs also off the table?" In a parking lot. He puts the hat on, in preparation for getting breakfast. Are eggs dairy. Bruce has no idea.
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A beat, and then—he just gets out of the car.
Tofu is not on the menu for this place, but apparently the question is asked enough that they can throw something together involving potato hash and beans, and force him to admit out loud that he would not like any cheese in his breakfast burrito. A large coffee to go, a decision to eat in the Mercedes with Clark's unprompted promise not to spill anything.
He is already a bite in while they cross the parking lot. Barry does this too. They'd probably corroborate the thing about high metabolisms.
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Inside: he chugs an entire coffee while their orders are being prepared, in an impressive gambit that might do more to suggest he isn't simply human than seeing prophetic visions of doom, and then gets it refilled before they leave, styrofoam over waxy cardboard holding the keys to life. If not for the luxury sunglasses and chipper companion, the exhausted grit of his voice and the tape around one hand would lend themselves to whispers. He stuffs $65 in the tip jar.
That's too bad about the cheese, says a wordless look. With dignity, Bruce is refraining from eating his burrito until they are back in the vehicle, which has seen worse things than breakfast. It'll survive.
"Did you go to drive-in theaters much, in Kansas?"
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Still, he has no complaints about his purchase, a couple of big bites in to curb hunger before contentedly taking his time, fussily tearing and rerolling wrapping to manage salsa and other bits.
"Uh huh," Clark says, returning to his coffee. "Sometimes. I could usually talk dad into letting me take the truck out, and they didn't do much to check ID or anything. Classics and horror movies, mostly. Shut down a few years ago, or longer." A quizzical head tip of recollection. "I think there's a Dillons there now."
Sips coffee. "You?"
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"Mm." Affirmative. Car on, but not moving. If he's only got one and a half hands, he's not going to eat a burrito and drive 120 miles per hour. He could, but the salsa would be pushing his luck.
"I ended up a fan," because for fifteen years I couldn't go into a regular cinema, "and sitting around in cars always makes me think of them. There's one on the other side of the city, still, but it's under the municipal airport. Which should be a crime, I think."
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It's an easy memory lane to go down. A highly awkward date with Lana Lang immediately springs to mind, at an age where girls seemed to have five years experience at acting like adults than every boy he knew, including (especially) himself. Other times, alone. Friends and making them hadn't come so easy, even if he was allowed to drive around on the occasional Friday night at age fifteen, which is.
Impressive, on reflection. What a nerd.
"I took a girl out to see Godzilla. The one from 1950-something. I thought it was pretty great," in the tone of someone who still thinks it was pretty great, awful American dub work and all. "I take it your taste runs a little more..." What's the word. "Less lizard monsters." Nailed it.
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"That's one of the best movies ever made. And one of the most visceral, dealing with fears about nuclear holocaust so soon after the war."
So. You know.
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And pleased. Bruce Wayne likes movies, and movies he likes. He starts describing with enthusiasm the plot of the second one he ever saw, unable to recall the name, and enough cross-reference between them identifies it as Invasion of Astro-Monster which also tells on him for his taste levels, in spite of a strong opener.
A hard pivot, then, asking, "Did you ever see The Day the Earth Stood Still? I could probably watch Wise movies all day," as he balls up the burrito wrapper, containing all debris within. He is, at least, a neat eater.
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Bruce eats his breakfast, quietness of his smile obscured behind burrito-or-cup held up to his face (showing his hand in his gaze, visible since he'd pushed his sunglasses up to the top of his head).
That future won't come. It isn't Clark. He won't let it be.
Bruce nods, when they swerve from kaiju to tales of human aggression versus aliens demanding peace. (It still isn't Clark.) "On the nose," he teases softly, still left with a corner of breakfast burrito, mostly folded up tortilla and leftover hot sauce. "One of the greats. In both instances, film and director. The first of his I saw was Born to Kill - too young, probably, but it was sort of therapeutic."
Of course it was. Bruce folds the foil and wax paper over itself, not so much buying time as just thinking.
"We should watch Haunting sometime. I always thought it was sort of romantic."
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and then the thread ended. hereafter are dvd extras.
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